Loose Ends in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write

I know it’s been a while, but quite a lot has happened. Some good, some bad. The bad is mostly of a legal debacle in which I have found myself therefore I won’t comment on it.

The good was that I went back to Cal Poly for my graduation with my mother, little brother and his girlfriend in tow. I didn’t really know what to expect out of the whole affair. It was just 36 hours of absolute craziness. My friend Dave had asked that I make a Facebook event out of my arrival so that he could remember to be there. So I did and I was pleasantly surprised by the amount of people that turned out for my one night return to the town.

My mother came along and I think she was surprised by how many friends I had made. In truth, it made me a little ashamed of my state of mind while I was in SoCal. I was in such a deep depression that I wasn’t really a good friend, and it was so nice seeing all these people absent all the swirling anger and fear that I had when I was living down there.

I was in such a great state of mind that I ended up having sex with David (the guy holding the microphone).... after three years of pining away. It was quite a strange experience. It was totally amazing and it brought something else to our friendship. I know this sounds a little weird, but I’ve always felt that people don’t get a complete picture of who I am until they have sex with me. I don’t know if that’s a deficiency of my personality or because of how guarded I am emotionally, but there’s a wall that falls down. Many of the guys that night have mentioned it (even Richard has commented upon it), so I think it’s just a fact of who I am.

The next day I booked it to Cal Poly for graduation rehearsal. When it came time for the actual graduation, my professor gave me a lovely introduction which ALMOST made me choke up. But I had to go up immediately after her. It was really great seeing her because we are both on the same level when it comes to public speaking that we totally dominated the speeches portion of the graduation. I loved it.

Afterward, some of the kids took me out to hang out and party. Soon afterward, the director of the Pride Center showed up… his first time hanging out with students. He and I had a mild flirtation while I was there which ramped up when he told me that he was leaving the position at the end of the year (probably why he finally felt comfortable hanging out with the kids). Our flirtation continued at a dangerous level to the point where the other guys were making very pointed looks at us toward the end of the night.

So basically, resolved a lot of the relationships I had left unfinished and put a “to be continued” on two important relationships. It was nice. I’m sure I’ll post more about it as I think more on the subject, as I tend to do.