I did my side hustle this morning and scheduled my oil change at a place where I had a coupon. I get there at 11am. My car is still sitting in the same spot 22 minutes later and they finally took it to the back. I was severely pissed. Like why the fuck do you make an appointment anywhere and still wait forever?! I was going to stop by my Mom’s to get my daughter’s glasses but I didn’t get done with the oil change in time before she had to work.
Saturday. I drop my daughter off with her. An hour into my shift, my Mom is asking me to come get my daughter because she was going to the bar with my older brother. Like what in the actual fuck! So thankfully I was able to get ahold of my friend and have her go pick her up. I don’t appreciate my job and income being jeopardized all because people want to hit the bar! I haven’t talked to her much since. She’s sorry now of course but I’ve had my friend watch her Sunday and she’s going to watch her this week as well. School is out next week and then she can’t start her thing until the 27th.
I’m starting to think I need to just find a day job within my daughter’s hours because it would make my life a lot less stressful. I can only rely on people for so long until something happens and then I have to worry about not having a job at all. My friend is always down to help but I definitely have my concerns because she’s mentioned me using her before and I just know this isn’t going to be a long term plan so right now I’m trying to figure out how I can fit my work schedule so no one has her too much.
I went on a ride with my new friend yesterday. I had a really good time and I’m supposed to hang out with him tomorrow. We both struggle to express our needs so that needs to be worked on. I mentioned maybe staying the night on Saturday and then when we were on Facetime that we should discuss us both being safe. UM, I never said we had to do anything and I might make something up so I don’t spend the night. For him to jump to the conclusion we’re going to have sex actually pisses me off. Let’s not jump the gun here. I’m also still talking to other guys because I really don’t know if this is gonna go anywhere and we haven’t made it official yet. We are still in the talking stage and I’m not going to set my sights too high on this for different reasons.
My daughter and I met my friend at the store earlier and then we were supposed to go to a school function but it took us awhile to shop and then we came home and we’re cleaning out the fridge and by then, I didn’t care to leave the house anymore. I’m definitely glad that my friend bought my daughter some clothes and helped out with some food but I just have my reservations about it because she watches my kid and I need her to for at least this week and next so I’m scared she’s going to feel like I’m using her. I know my daughter loves hanging out with her and her family but I doubt this is going to be a long term situation.
I just wish I had more help with my daughter, like from her real Dad. I know that will never change but it just pisses me off so bad sometimes. I’d love to have
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