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  • May 13, 2026, 1:52 a.m.
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I love our interns, I generally REALLY do.

This week they can suck it.

One quit before she started in AUGUST. Irritating. Shes like maybe in spring? Seriously. 

Then one I onboarded on Monday. Hes like Oh I need to change my hours on thurs. Wait. Wut... Hes like yeah, I cant do 2-8 now, I need 8-1. FML. You see when you give me your hours. We ask months in advance because we SET SHIT UP. Like multiple onboarding things. AND clients. So now we gotta call and MOVE clients. 

The other, I onboarded and shes like Oh, cool yeah my schedule is perf. EXCEPT imma be out for school that week. FFS. So now again same thing. I need to bump her back a week, Move her onboarding appts (thats three with me, two with therapists) AND her clients..

WHY THE HELL CANT YOU WARN ME. But nooo you tell me ON your onboarding day you need to adjust. 

Just pisses me off. Yes im adaptable and changeable and I can change shit on the fly. AND I dont like to because its not just ME that gets messed up here. Now I have a therapist waiting for their intern for shadow day and no intern... Now I have clients who have to wait ANOTHER week to be seen ( they are transfers from other interns so they are gapping a couple weeks, which in most cases we see is fine) 

My office rearrange went well. My computer was in the wrong place and it could be seen from the door. So we had to move it. Im adjusting. Its fine... 

I bought bowling shoes, in a 9, one place i wear 8s the other was 9s, so i got 9s... 9s were a half size too small. I had little girl try them on, They fit her great. I also bought her 0s in pants .... child... Shes like a head shorter then me. Her feets are big. I ordered new ones for me. Now we will have matching hot pink and black shoes. T bought her a 6 lb ball so she will have her own. Ill just use house balls for now. 


We turned in our April fundraiser. We did a supply drive for the local animal shelter. We got a TON of stuff which is great. N and I got to cuddle the quarentene kitties who arent up for adoption yet. And some that were. I want the wobbly kitty ( has a neurological disorder) she cant walk and falls over. I want all the kitties other people wont adopt. And we got to pet one puppers. The rest were out in the field. The non profit has like an acre or two where they get to run the dogs. And only one litter of kittens about 6 weeks old. 


Our next drive is a food drive for the local shelter. Then after that its water bottles and lunch boxes with a program that does free school supplies for kids in the community. I already bought water bottles. And food drives are easy. I clean out my pantry for canned goods that are still good but we arent moving through fast enough. 


Im seriousy starting to stress about my uterine biopsy coming up in 2 weeks. Im doing it without pain meds. Its fast. But Seriously.. and sucks because its right when im ovulating so its likely going to throw any good happy fun times out of wack for a while... I ended up getting on tiktok for hysterectomy and its like SO bad. There is educating yourself and then the fear mongering that comes with every horror story ever coming out.  And im getting to the second point now. I need to stop, or im not going to do it. Plus its elective... And now im stressing. Like people telling me these horror stories and months of healing. Removing the cervix can shorten the vaginal canal and sex too soon can give infections. Your intestines fill the space where your uterus was and you can have problems with gas and digestion forever due to compromising the intestinal system. And more lol. See on a normal person none of this is really a worry. But im hypermobile. So chances are it WILL happen to me... And you cant go back you just gotta live with it. 


Ugh my period is like 3 days late ( stress) its started to spot but not really start. And im cramping. Cramping isnt normal for me. I guess you can get cramps after the surgery too! But cramping means its going to be a really BAD period... When its bad, I cant even make an hr with my cup, period panties AND a pad. I literally bleed through all of it ( combined) within an hr.... Yeah, Im worried... 

Its why im looking at the chop chop... 

I can get up to 12 weeks paid time off for it. But I cant handle being that long off work either... I NEED to work now. Its like a thing.... 

Ugh, ok i need emotional support gummy bears. Im going to the store. 


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