Be a child: feral, authentic, no concept of society.
Be a child in society: meet rejection, fear, misunderstanding, evil people.
Get wrecked.
Bury the child.
Become a good citizen: embrace inauthenticity, cater to norms and customs, hide self away.
Find success.
Find belonging.
Find burnout out from running personality software constantly from the superego.
Resent inner child for existing. Blame it for the drain in energy.
Attempt to overwrite it with more socially favored programs with proven success.
Child never vacates.
Energy for custom software depletes.
All personalities collapse back into the child.
Bury the fake versions of yourself.
Abandon compartmentalization and rise a third time.
A singular individual. A singularity.
The real trick, I think, to maintaining authenticity without being too alien or off putting to others, is to use social skills and self control to keep everything at your own expense. Be embarrassing, but contain that embarrassment to yourself. Fall on your own sword at every opportunity. Don’t drag anyone else into your custom set of expectations and interpersonal rules. Own the fault for not being ordinary. Never apologize for it. Never second guess it. Never even look at it. But own it, and make sure people around you know that you do.
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