I don’t know what to say, butI feel like I need to check in.
First things first, I’ll give an update on my mother. She’s fine. Doctors couldn’t find anything wrong with her. Must have been anxiety. Like I said.
My city was hit with a blizzard. We don’t usually close down, but a lot of the city did. Buses were getting stuck. HR sent out an email assuring us that all of our locations had managers there for the community, and they didn’t want the rest of us to come in and try to run our programs. They wanted everyone home, safe and sound. We had to talk to our supervisors to discuss what that looked like. I worked from home, so I didn’t have to cash in on any wellness.
I was looking forward to a day home alone when my roommate showed up. Almost at the worst possible time. I was playing with my toys. Her work shut down as well. Yesterday was the one day she decided not to hide in her room the whole day. I was trying to work while she was cleaning. I shouldn’t complain, but I was on the phone, and she is turning on the vacuum. She made us dinner, so I got over it. We will see if she gets fired today. She is premenopausal. Has been for a few years now. She’s in her Karen era and threw a tantrum at work yesterday. Basically started a mutiny because her boss wouldn’t close their store down. She even stole a shovel on her way out because, in her mind, the world always owes her something.
Today we serve the community a solstice dinner. Then our two-week holiday starts. Today, better fly by. Tomorrow, my plan was to fly to BC, but my brother wasn’t able to make that work on his end. He’s choosing to be homeless to save money. He’s living out of his trailer, and I didn’t want to sign up for a 10-day camping trip.
Once the winter break is over, I register for those courses. Just high school, again. The two courses I failed two years ago. I took one year off because I had to find employment. I probably didn’t fail those courses; I didn’t see my grades. I couldn’t look. It all fell apart on me once I fell behind and couldn’t catch up. My Stan that I had on here, she viewed it as a moral failure. Which is how I was viewing it at the time. I didn’t know I had ADHD. Let alone, understood what that was. I didn’t know what was happening with me. I was experiencing the executive dysfunction, ADHD paralysis, that I had in high school over 20 years ago. It was a little bit traumatic. Now I’m hella nervous about going back. I have all the material to get ahead this time. Now I have to put myself through the stress test of studying before I go back. I have two weeks off and no other plans. Not even a Christmas dinner. Which is kind of depressing, but I like it this way.
My birthday is in a couple of weeks, Jan 6th. On the 12th day of Christmas. My 40th. I have no plans yet. But man, I have a lot on my mind. Midlife crisis stuff. Signing up for a 7-8 year school journey? Do I really want to do that? For example. I should be thinking about retirement, not student loans. And is it too late for a mortgage? Things like that. Then I have to try not think about how all the policies that are coming will get in my way. The digital IDs are where it starts. My heart drops just thinking about it. What country can I flee to? The normies are just so inconceivably stupid. That makes my stomach turn. I have to perform to talk to them on their level. It’s like talking to software. I don’t want to get into it.
I had wanderlust like something fierce. Wish I had someone to travel with. What I really should do is move out of my province because the men here are…
Not a whole lot is going on externally. Same old, same old. My roommate and I talked about the rent increase, and we are going to try for another two years together. We are trying to save money. I don’t know if I can do it with her, but it’s too expensive to live on one’s own. That is why we are living together in the first place.
Anyway, I am going to go dig my car out and head to the gym before work today. After work, I am heading over to Bevs to build a D&D character, whatever that means. I said I would learn D&D with her sons, who love the game. Tomorrow I start another 5-day fast. Maybe I shouldn’t hit the gym then. Blah. I’ll be able to think clearly the second my roommate leaves for work. That extra presence is too much, as we all know. I have two weeks to do a 5-day fast. I really want to hit the gym, so I’ll just push the fast to Dec 26th.
I just randomly remembered what my last winter break looked like. I was sick as a dog. I spent the whole year looking forward to the break from my roommate, who should have been at work while I was on holiday, but no. She was around for 99% of it. I really hope that isn’t the case this year.
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