Oops… I did it again
On the weekend, I noticed how my drama and upsets at work were not eating away at me. My week ended pretty decently. Then I got curious about whether I could change that. I consciously thought about what bothers me there, and it didn’t take long before it sent me. What was I thinking? I was out running my errands, so I decided to play random Christmas music. It cheered me up. It made me nostalgic. Then I realized that I was in the right place for that. I was driving in my old childhood neighborhood. Then, the next day, I ran into my second-grade teacher. Then I had a dream about all of my childhood friends. It was a nice blast from the past.
Work eats away at me again. I’m saving face, but I’m pissed off about a lot. Bah humbug. I’ll get over it. I’m just burned out. I’m so spoiled there. I’m Saturn-ruled, I can see exactly how karma is going to unfold.
Currently, I am healing with a cold. I saw this coming a mile away when I had to clean mold out of a fridge at work. That’s a long story. I was so sick last December, I do recall. I am the only one running my program, so I push through. This is such a big week. Today is our grand opening. I have to present my program, and I am not missing that. I have been looking forward to it for weeks. I built this bitch from the ground up, and I’m damn proud of it. I want to stand by it. My coordinator wants me to stay home and rest, but I can’t trust him with it, and the idea of him getting all the credit makes my skin crawl. He had nothing to do with any of it. I slaved away on this presentation while he played on his guitar.
His other program is in for it. Their funders are harsh and make even the toughest of people want to cry. It has all the exact problems my program had when I started in September of last year. Only, he doesn’t have me to push him through, so they are going to see what he is made of. The contrast will show the difference. Day two of the presentation, that open house is exclusive. It is for funders and politicians.
They finally hired someone for my team. They started yesterday. I don’t know if it is my OCD, but I am lowkey bothered that they hired a woman for a big brother program. Why? She is the Executive Director’s daughter’s friend. She is 19 with no life experience. This is her first job. I’m not confident that she is equipped to mentor young boys. I’m forcing myself to keep an open mind. I do like her so far, however. Starting today, she will be with me every step of the way so we have to get along. She will be joining me with the kids until January. They are also planning to hire someone to split between me and my coordinators and other program. This is what she was supposed to be hired for, but they are trying to do me a solid by pushing her into this role ASAP… so, I’m technically being spoiled.
I definitely need some R&R. We get two weeks off at the end of the month, and I won’t be sick during that this time so… yay. My BC trip fell through, unfortunately. Anyway, on with my day then. I picked up overtime yesterday. I have to do it again today. Well, I don’t have to, but nothing gets done with my coordinator around without me.
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