inside me seems to mirror the external world.
I feel so expansive. I see the neediness for connection and it’s response- defensiveness of personal space; the wish for a protector warrior with my lack of creative outpouring- and the aimless hoarding of resources with no force behind action. I see that to move into a higher expression- of embodiment instead of wanting- that I will stop wishing, and act in resonance with one who already has. Because, in fact, I do. It is not a matter of seeing it materially, but one of embodying the feeling of gratitude in acceptance of it.
It is similar to my earlier post about the consciousness aperture. That is the modality of how one may expand. I don’t suppose it’s the only one. But it works for me. It is a practice in accepting that the discursive left-brain yang analytical mind cannot encompass all of reality. It is a practice of seeking out it’s compliment. At least for me, it is. I perceive that there are people who would be experiencing the world from the creative right-brain, yin, feminine mind, which equally cannot encompass all of reality. They would be more in need of balance through incorporation of the other. Either way, when the polarities are integrated, or even begin to be integrated, there is something else which appears. One may sense it even from the outset of contemplation of integration. It is sensed as a nameless something, at that stage; a waiting bridegroom waiting for his bride. But, at least for me, there is no clarity about whether it is a positive or a negative something. Perhaps because it is both. That something is the transcendent whole of the polarity held in perfect union by — well, by the true Self.
“Do not worry at all, but in every matter, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to Elohim. And the peace of Elohim, which surpasses all understanding, shall guard your hearts and minds through Messiah Yehoshua” Phillipians 4:6-7
I believe that we probably perceive the next iteration of awareness as a deity, or a god. Something that is nevertheless outside of and separate from the I. Yet as I approach, it appears to become another facet of the polarity. That iteration of awareness is the new Savior-Victim polarized dynamic. There is no Savior without the Victim. If I experience myself as the victim, then there must be myself as the savior; unconscious, but still myself. And as this expansion ensues, awareness of the true Self becomes clear. That I AM the Self which is aware of both the conscious and unconscious; I AM the one who is aware of experiencing the entire polarized dynamic. I AM the wholeness itself which holds this polarity in perfect union.
There is so much contradiction but, I remember that as above so below. And I think there is something to be said about the creation realizing he is the Creator- of moving backwards, or however one might think of it, from limited, imperfect, one-sided, extreme, unbalanced, to not just balanced, but to the very fulcrum itself. And, as an imperfect creation it seems miraculous. As the whole, holding the creation and Creator in perfect union, it is miraculous.
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