So, one of the worries I have with where I’m at right now? Is the routine element. I am one of those disastrous contradictions where… routine is good for me! If I have a routine, I’m more likely to get things done. It is the easiest way to make sure that things go smoothly. Really. But I grow so weary of a routine so quickly! It is as though my mind has been poisoned by too much Wes Anderson or Robert Rodriguez and as soon as my brain realizes “Oh, this is exactly the same thing in exactly the same way as we’ve been doing this of multiple days/weeks now” and is just waiting for the edit to skip the routine and doldrum. WHICH is why I’ve needed to force myself to actually sit and get stuff done. Because my mind is very “Routine Bad. Big Project Good. Big Project requiring multiple days of working the same project? If not entertaining- then BAD!” So.... it’s something I certainly need to be on the lookout for and push through as I try to… at least make some kind of consistent progress!
TO DO
(1) Hy Vee for Redemption (ignore the temptation to buy more)
(2) Home and Good Girl Treat for Nala
(3) Change Clothes
(4) Dog Walk
(5) Dog Park
(6) Make/Eat Dinner
(7) Continue Garage/Redemption Work
(8) Enjoy after Chores Activities; but consider tracking when you go to sleep! You’ve been pretending that it is fine to get 5 to 6 hours when… maybe you should try for more?
So, let’s go over how I did today but also… towards the end… an update on what I asked Advice for:
(1) Straight to Hy Vee for more Redemption. I processed 145 cans, and Hy Vee accepted 112 of them. But do you know what the biggest bullshit of all was? Of the 33 cans that HyVee did not accept? TWENTY FOUR OF THEM WERE HY-VEE BRAND! Now… how are you going to contest that I bought them at a Hy Vee Store when they are HY VEE brand?! Literally, the cans say HY VEE on each and every single fucking can. Do you really want to hold onto the money so badly? You really want to be that kind of petty bitch? It’s a dollar 20 that I already gave you under the legal agreement that when I returned your cans back- I’d get that dollar 20 back. This is really some bullshit!
To keep in the spirit of the running tally: I have now processed 307 items for redemption with 236 items being accepted. I will be really interested (and kind of horrified) to see what this number ends up totaling when we reach the end of the Garage Clean Up!
(2) Then I came home to give Nala her Good Girl Treat! She was semi-hiding (not intentionally) when I got home but was super excited for the treat, lol. I also took the time to text Sunday’s Cancellation again. Nothing too… high pressure (I hope). I simply wrote Just wanted to follow up- would you be interested or available to meet up on Saturday in the afternoon or evening? Hopefully that’s… the right tone of… asserting that I want to meet… if that’s still something she would be interested in.
(3) Changed clothes; which today mostly meant making sure to switch out the Suit Coat for an actual Autumn Jacket.
(4) Did a quick walk.
(5) About 30 minutes at the Dog Park due to how dark it was and how cold it was. Nala actually started to whine a little so- that meant she was definitely ready to go!
(6) Came back and whipped up a bit of Mushroom Risotto and topped it with some of the left over Lo Mein. Admittedly, it wasn’t as plentiful or as good as Nancy’s recipe but if pressed, I have to admit that I only assume she took that with her and can’t say for positive that it isn’t still somewhere in all of my kitchen stuff!
I didn’t put this as part of the TO DO, but as the washing machine was full after cleaning up dinner, I ran the Dish Washer. Important to the whole use the kitchen properly concept!
(7) Shoved another couple of boxes of plastic bottles into the trunk for a recycling run tomorrow. And it showed me a few things. I really am “getting down to it” where the large recycling mess of the garage is getting taken care of. I will have to wait for a weekend where I am not working for the Rejected Stuff; but I think I’m pretty close to just having the rejected stuff left. Only a few more trips until then. Which begs follow up questions. The garage definitely needs a good de-spidering/dead bugging as well as going through boxes and getting rid of boxes or at least unloading the items to proper places. But that is a long standing issue with me PROPER PLACES. I never know where something should go! And the garage doesn’t have a workbench or cupboards or anything like that. I’d have to brave the shed and I don’t want to put everything from the garage into the shed.... for a lot of reasons. Biggest of which may be that shed is generous. It’s more like a weird closet they added to the garage that cannot be accessed from the garage… and requires walking around the house to get to. It’s… like so many “fun additions” in this house… it was built cheaply, it was designed oddly, and frankly? A better idea would have been to just expand the garage itself slightly to either better accommodate a second car, as I call bullshit that this is actually a two car garage.... or if it is a “proper two car garage” have the extra space for a workbench and some form of storage. Seriously, the entire house is sans built-in storage. UNLESS, and this is possible, unless all the holes in the wall were where built-in storage used to be but… it wasn’t present when I purchased the house, so it wasn’t properly part of the deal. BUT yeah. After finishing the redemption task… I’ll need to give serious thought to what next to tackle on the PROJECT list!
(8) All told, I got everything done by 9 but… I’m probably still not going to bed before 11. Because I know me and because I know my schedule.
Now, to update about the thing!
SO.... funny story- before I drifted off to sleep last night, I checked my personal e-mail. Third Match sent a response e-mail on Monday Night shortly before 9 p.m. Kind of a long one, which, in these circumstances I consider as a positive. She apologized for taking so long to get back to me and explained how hectic her week has been. She’s in the therapy field… working AEA in 3 schools with a part-time private practice. Her schedule sounds very busy; but her dog makes sure she gets outside every day (sounds familiar). Tone of the e-mail is nice. Will definitely respond and possibly make plans for something in the future.
THEN… tonight, after sending Sunday’s Cancellation the follow up text message- she responded well! First said that she was still at work, so would respond when she was free. Then confirmed that she would love to meet up this Saturday. I suggested a place that sounded really interesting and she agreed but said we might want to call in a reservation. That made me very happy because I am the kind of guy that likes having reservations and going to places that use them! I MISS THAT LIFE, as I have been saying recently here! So I called and, actually, the place only accepts reservations for large groups. BUT assured me that we would be fine, just the two of us. I texted that back, just to keep Sunday’s Cancellation informed. She was happy to be updated and encouraged “we can text before hand if you want, too. Not needed, just throwing it out there. Depends on how blind you want the date!” Which… shows interest, a little nerves, and an understanding of how awkward Adult Dating and Blind Dating and all that nonsense is! It is FAR too early, however, to point out why her statement had a double meaning for me. As my last partner was blind, I could do a lot with “Depends on how blind you want the date!” But I’ll leave that there for now!
Oh, also, I should note… I do have a tendency to still do that immature thing where my mind starts creating future scenarios and I need to be watchful of that. Like… I was already contemplating pseudonyms for this woman (partly because creating pseudonyms is fun) but I’m like- “Dude- you’ve never met. This could be awkward, painful, embarrassing, a nightmare… don’t build expectations. Just… approach as an interesting, hopefully enjoyable evening meeting someone new.”
SPEAKING OF BLIND, however, earlier today as a random impulse, I read some of the “THIS DAY IN YOUR PREVIOUS ENTRIES” and… holy fuck! After reading what I was up to this time of year last year? YEAH! I mean, I was living it, I know how miserable it was but.... what a reminder that I am doing so much better this year! Like… I knew in that “my personal life isn’t actually a disaster; just lonely and starved for affection, conversation, and physical contact” but… a good reminder that lonely and deeply wanting connection is still much better then where I was last year!
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