HELP in THOUGHTS

I think I need help. I just don’t feel well mentally. Too many things bother me and I don’t know what to do. I have trouble making decisions. I can’t stand when people do things that I think are “wrong.” I get depressed and lonely when we stay home at night. Hubby is in one room and I’m in the other. It never use to bother me. I don’t know how to overcome these feelings. My daughter always told me to go see a behavioural therapist. Maybe I will. We have to pay at home so it won’t make a difference if I pay here.
Whenever hubby goes to do something I always think he is with that woman. I know it’s nonsense but I don’t know how to get these thought out of my head.
I just can’t believe this is me. Maybe I need medication. Maybe I need a swift kick in the ass. Maybe it’s one of the medications I am taking....................................I think after this entry I will look up the side affects of the medication I am taking.
I have so much to be grateful for and I am.
I am thrilled to be in Florida away from the winter.
I am grateful that I have hobbies I enjoy.
I am slowly sewing a quilt. I do a block a month. I am almost finished last months. It takes me awhile to figure it out.
I have been reading. I just finished a book called CUT ME LOOSE - about a young religious girl who leaves her religion. I am also reading a book by Lisa Scottoline.
I go swimming five or six times a week. I enjoy the water.
I am doing stained glass.
My sons and grandchildren will be coming down in December. I have a Hanukah party to plan.
I stopped reading the newspaper - too much murder and terrorism. At breakfast I rather read a book or magazine.
Anyhow I will discuss this with my hubby tomorrow and see what he says about going to see someone.