Yesterday, near the end of the afternoon, I started to feel very sad. Heartbroken, even. I was playing a song from my brother’s playlist, and I started to really miss him and my nephews. It took me back to BC. I can’t even bring myself to look at pictures and videos from my trip. I miss those little gremlins so much. I miss the ocean and the mountains. I even miss the hippies and the crackheads. I even miss that twunk that was hitting on me.
I needed to shake it off, so I went to the gym and did legs. It’s the only thing I can get done during peak hours. When I got home and started supper, I decided to finish watching K-pop Demon Hunters, and the climax song did me in. I only wept for two seconds. The lyrics felt very powerful and relevant to me.
Today I am back at work. I start in a few hours. I don’t have the headspace for it, but it is what it is. I still feel a little sad. I have a one-on-one with one of our kids; I don’t know what I’m going to do with them yet. I wanted to take our bikes to the provincial park, but it is a bit cold out. We can bundle up. I will see what my coordinator has been up to while I was away. I probably won’t like a single decision that he made, but what can you do? I probably did more while he was on holiday the week before mine. I’m also wondering what his boss is going to do about the two things I flagged for him. He isn’t good at keeping confidences.
Blah, I have a few hours before I start my shift. Maybe I will hit up the gym. People are coming to inspect our apartment and replace a few things. Wouldn’t mind not being here for that.
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