Learned a New Word in The Kid Used To Dream

Today, I learned a new word. The word is- “Fawning.”

Apparently, this is my personality. According to the resources I have been looking into, it is also a survival mechanism. That’s right, I’m a go along to get along kind of guy apparently. In those moments, when I recognize that I am being a jackass, it is actually the breaking point of the pain that I am masking. All this time I thought I was doing good by being invisible. I thought it was a positive quality to live at peace with everyone. When in fact, it’s the residue of trauma.

I can most definitely relate to situations I’ve had in the past where when I stood up for myself I ended up apologizing for it - you guessed it, Fawning.

These are the things I get for being the kid that never got into trouble - or at best, never got caught.

What a way to live your life....