Processing Fear, Pt 2 in Journal

I spoke on this a bit ago, and it is still the case that I cannot access my Terror.

I reflected that perhaps the Terror was not mine, but perhaps a thing from outside. And maybe that was why I could no longer access it.

I don’t think that that is the case. But I was wondering about it. Where did it go? Why can I suddenly not access this state, which I have been able to access all my life? Why is it suddenly an empty space?

I contemplated. I asked. I did find my Terror. I still cannot access it. I only recognize it from the outside. It is so far away; there is no space or time in the Astral or any other Spiritual realms. But, in the sense of the physical realm, it was very far away. Miles and miles.
Why? I wondered.
Not that I am wanting or not wanting the Terror. I feel genuinely, deeply curious about it.
I recall, the last time I did experience the Terror, I realized that when I felt it I was in a state of total helplessness, victim, persecution, without influence, and without any way to express to the Terror- or the creator of the Terror- my true experience. It was the fear of abandonment and separation from Love- (this can also be thought of as my identity, “I”, or God”.
And then it struck me. How can I access a state which depends on my being identified with the thought-form of being totally helpless victimized and without influence, as I am choosing with my own empowered influence to experience it?
These are opposing conceptual thought-forms.
Ah-Hah
There it is, friends.
“There is nothing to fear but fear itself-” and that sounds silly to me, now. It always sounded silly. I don’t* actually fear my Terror. I am curious about it. I feel Love for it, actually.

My conceptual framework has deepened through meditating on this. I simply am not in resonance with my Terror, anymore. I do not have the matching thought-forms existing within me; at least, they were not close enough to have resonance. That is why my Terror seems miles and miles away.
I wondered if it is a further development to be able to forget that I am doing something in complete contradiction to my Terror, in order to identify enough with the thought-form to resonate with it. I wonder if it is a higher skill or not. I received the imaginative image of the Angels regularly practicing this in order to come into contact with us human beings. Yes. It is a very highly developed skill.

Everything is shape and resonance. I realized that that is how the BioGeometrical designs work; they tap into that plane. And every plane. There is no space and no distance, and that is how things that are on opposite sides of the planet are affected. The shape information is all that is needed.
Likewise, the thought-from, emotional feeling, sense perception, color, smell, etc etc, are ALL aspects of the being that can at any time create resonance.

Ahhhh I just realized these are the Archetypal plane beings. So this is what I am beginning to make conscious, in myself.