Self Worth in Journal

and Resentment.

I am learning about myself anew, it feels like. No longer is my self-worth tied to the opinions or the treatment of others. Formatively, my parents.
Amazingly, my resentment of them is also gone.

It seems connected.

As well connected is my worry or anxiety about my children’s future and their ability to have and maintain positive productive relationships. A thought-form appeared in me, today. One that has heretofore been totally alien to me.
Spontaneously, I thought, “These kids are going to be fought over- and their spouses will be amazing.”
And I stopped. I was like where did that come from? It isn’t unwelcome, obviously. But it’s different. It is confident. It is based in knowledge and felt experience. It is based in wisdom.

I recall many other times that I have noticed thought-forms equally as well crafted, and they were negative or neutral or even totally inverted to my values. Most of these I noticed after doing IFS (Internal Family Systems) therapy, as it would stand that I had gotten to know myself quite a bit. But I have several memorable occasions before that, as well.

So I had these connections and also the contradictory experiences from my own childhood- the voice of my dad saying “I pity the fool”. And yet I feel no resentment towards it.

Why?

I am SO curious. Is it that my self-worth was formatively based on my parent’s opinions of me, and now that I have a Purpose that is wholly and utterly independent of them, that I no longer rely on it? Has my foundation shifted? It really seems to have.

My self-worth is no longer a contention. It is independent of my formative years.
My resentment of having received low (or negative) self worth from my parents is gone.

Is it because I did the inheritance healing?

I don’t know- but it seems like something here must be different.