Tension of in Meditations

Conflict
It’s in my neck. Coming out. More and more each day. I encourage it to come. It is release.

Last night, I prayed meditatively for Christ and the Angels to heal my inheritance. First from my mom, then my dad.

I felt a distinct release with mom’s portion. On the left side of my heart.
I gladly thanked the Angels. Then I turned to my dad’s side.

His portion was there, but I didn’t feel anything. After some time, I investigated.
Inside the healing chamber was something dense, something immovable. It is dross. Which is only created by conscious evil.
This is… sad. I feel very sad that this is confirmed for me in a somewhat more meaningful way than just intellectual. For awhile, I continue to try the healing process with it, but eventually recall that a conscious evil cannot be undone by anyone whom did not consciously create it. And, the only thing left to do was to attempt to send it back.
So I ask the Christ spirit directly to perform this, and, it was done immediately. I didn’t even witness it, but I knew that it was done.
I tried to wrap the act in a thought-form of love and compassion for him; to tell him that the only way out of this is to reabsorb the deed, and to turn from this. That in the end he would turn to dross if he didn’t make a change of heart. I wrapped it in forgiveness and love, and then I cut off the connection altogether, as best I could.