Slow Motion in Current Events

Boring life, boring entry.

Today is my third day without coffee. There haven’t been any casualties of whore yet. My roommate is in close proximity so I have been avoiding her. The brain fog should lift either today or tomorrow. My energy levels will stabilize to their true level in a day or two. My nervous system should be reset and I’ll know where I stand so I will build it from there. Until then, this is a wild ride. Life feels like it is going in slow motion. I’m still drinking tea but it is not the same by a lot. I can absolutely feel the difference in my stress levels. The next thing I need to do, which is a work in progress, is clean up my diet. My grocery order comes in after work. I have a lot of work to do in the kitchen. I don’t have the dopamine to create new habits so I am hoping that there is enough novelty in this. Today I am ready to return to the gym. This could be a bad idea. It’s the guilt for me. I could just enjoy the ride and let life happen in slow motion. I’m recalibrating.

I might have inspired my coordinator to quit coffee. You do you. I explained the epiphany that I had. I think it will be what I open my podcast with. I am going to tear the wellness world apart and take the spiritual healing world down with it. We don’t have a mindset issue we have a metabolic issue. We aren’t going to journal our cortisol down. Wearing a rose quartz crystal is not going to recalibrate your nervous system and if I hear frequency and vibration one more time… ancient wisdom is great but we have modern problems. I have to practice what I preach so this is why I am cleaning up my diet. If I am wrong, then everything will just get worse. I know that it won’t because I already did this last year.

I have a five-day weekend coming up. I’ve been doom-scrolling my evenings away which is eating me alive on the inside. My burnout is bad in the evenings and I’m just killing time until 8 PM. That is the earliest I will let myself go to bed. Sleep is still the one thing I can get right still.

Speaking of my coordinator. I snapped at him but it wasn’t that harsh. He probably just thought I was being zesty. I have been working on merch for our program since October. Literally, beyond the last second, like I literally just approved everything from the company that is going to make them for us, he tells me that we need to add our organization’s main logo to all of the merch. I had to reach out to get them to halt our order so I could start from scratch!

Anyway, I woke up at 4:30 AM and I am hoping that this is the new normal. I miss being in the 5 AM club. It’s been the 6 AM club since the time change and I haven’t been able to bounce back. So on to the gym now, I guess.