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Ive been so out of it. Im overly tired. Its been crap weather for a while and its finally nice out. Its 60. 
I slept in till 10. Ok I was up at 730, And made myself go to bed rather then cook. Husband got up at 9 and got frisky. I got up at 10. 
I made some beautiful loaves of cinnamon raisin bread. Im getting GREAT at this recipe. Its so good. We ate one already. I may start another. Is actually super easy. 

We got the cat an appt to get fixed. He started spraying in the house. He only does it with B and since he moved back he sprayed. Im so mad. I know fixing him may not even FIX it. The appt was only 25 thank goodness. But maybe it will.

I know eggs are SO expensive. But I have one hella overabundance right now. My girls are doing GOOD. I think i have about 7 dozen haha. 

Ok rare photo time.

Look at my baby.....

Shes almost 11 now. But damn it if she doesnt make me want to have another baby ( NO, im 40, and T is fixed But FUCK!) Mostly I miss being a mom of littles sometimes. Several moms at work are having first and second babies and I really miss that part of my life too. We throw them baby showers and I make them hand knits. And Im jealous no one did that for me. But also I MISS babies. 
It will pass haha. 

B posted on insta it was his gf and his first anniversary. They lived together that 2 ish months. Not long and nothing since. Its all been online. I feel for him. If we were in a better place I would invite her here. I mean they are both almost 21. But we arent doing so hot right now. We arent BAD just not so hot. My parents and christmas really wiped us. It takes a lot of time to recover.

But you know what I Still want to hire someone to help me clean and organize my house. I need it so bad. But I cant afford that. Im throwing some stuff away too. Im trying. But man I find these places that where like grease accumulates and then the dirt here is so bad. So I opened the door from my kitchen to laundry room. And there was a greasy spot that has dust caked on. Its so gross but like how. do normal people wipe down door jams?  Im struggling to wipe down my cabinets regularly enough.  Speaking of. I need to scrub my backsplash. I dont have a bag on my stove so stuff gets on it easily. 

Sigh. 
Ok my meds are kicking in. Its prime time to go clean something...