another headache in Craftwork
- Jan. 20, 2025, 11:02 a.m.
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Getting really sick of my shit. I had three headaches this week. That’s unusual even for me. I’m also getting random pain in my shoulder, that I’m 98% sure is referred pain from my neck. Several weeks of physio has done fuck all.
I don’t think I mentioned seeing an Ophthalmologist before the holidays. He told me that the muscle balance between both eyes was good, so I don’t have to worry about binocular vision disorder (which I wondered if it was the cause of my headaches/contributing to ADHD symptoms), and suggested that I have Greater Occipital Neuralgia which considering that is the nerve that M suffers with neuralgia, I can say with confidence my symptoms are nothing like his. Even without this knowledge, none of my symptoms match the symptoms of the condition. When I said this to my physio a week ago he agreed that GON has much more severe/apparent symptoms.
Okay so what’s my ACTUAL PROBLEM then? He suggested I go back to the doc to discuss. Whee.
Monday I told Old Boss that we need to catch up (I wanted to mention the conversation with Supervisor regarding where I’m going next), which didn’t happen until Friday.
Tuesday I sewed for the first time in ages. Part of the delay from when The Tatter loaned me a sewing machine was a wall of awful that stemmed from just getting the machine set up, whether I remembered how, or if I’d run into any hindrances along the way. I needn’t worry. Even without a manual I figured out how to wind a bobbin and thread the machine, adjust tension, length and stitch settings… I also finally sewed a lace panel into the sleeves of a shirt because they felt too short. I think it looks good considering I was kinda half-assing the effort.
Wednesday we resumed Craft Night, and it was just the core women, so it was very comfortable. I bought new pans on our way out of the store, we’d never had ceramic before and damn they are some NICE pans. You know you are An Old when you get excited about cookware.
Thursday the second round of DBT went… well? I talked more than I intended, but I got good feedback from the other participants, and overall I left feeling neutral to good. I’m certainly trying more this round.
That evening I ended up locked in the bathroom with Cosmos while M sorted out the liquid cooling system on his computer. Why he chose to do that before dinner is beyond me. I was so ragey by the time we were freed from the bathroom it took time to chill out.
Friday, 15 minutes before home-time, I finally got to talk to Old Boss. I told him about my concerns with the plan Supervisor has for me, that I need to get away from the sensitive information that I am subject to in my position. We talked it through, he told me that his daughter has been struggling with the same things I am struggling with, in the news. He suggested that maybe I talk this over with the doctor and get a proper limitation in place, but I said I think that would be a little extreme and also risk my employment. An Operations officer who can’t be near Ops? Nah. Granted I cannot be confident that things will get better, given what is happening tomorrow - which we’re not talking about that here - but I do want to get better.
Friday evening I had plans to meet up with Erica again, but she couldn’t meet until 5pm, so I had 2h to kill. I asked Mandy if she wanted to check out an occult shop near my work, and then a rock place (I was expecting woo-woo crystals, but the owner is a literal geologist), which she was totally into. Just before I was leaving work I got a text from Erica that she was getting pre-migraine symptoms, so we cancelled our plans again. It had been a long week, so I was happy for the early home time.
Mandy and I kept our mini-date though. At the first shop I found little candle holders for the small 1h candles (my attempt to make holders was a bust), and some pretty rocks. At the rock place I got a geode and a cube of pyrite, the geode is pure white, sparkly and beautiful and the pyrite is so cool, it reminds me of a mini Borg cube. It’s always a good time hanging out with Mandy. She has such bright energy, which I know part of that is her anxiety, but that feels like excitement to me, so I always leave her feeling recharged. I need to make more of an effort with Red, though, because it does feel a little like she’s getting pushed out/left behind, and I certainly don’t want that.
M and I had a really nice, chill weekend. Got a little high, played some games, did some crafts, I finally finished sticking the pink crystals to the ears of my kitty hat. It’s cute. I made decent headway tidying the art room, moving some furniture around so I could set my sith costume up in the art room.
Today we determined that our brief foray into D&Ding as old ladies has come to an end. We’re looking forward to resuming Sunday brunches, probably with small walks around a local park, which will be good for all of us.
Despite the world burning around me, my bubble hasn’t felt this good in a while.
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