Plans in The 2020s

I’ve slept on my new wonderful waterbed 2 times and both times I’ve had nightmares. The last one wasn’t nearly as bad as Tom being pretty sure he had a deadly blood disease. Instead, we were in the middle of the ocean in a shallow spot that only got up to our knees when the tide was high and became a huge sandbar when the tide was low. Somehow, we got stranded there and I was worried that it would be a while before we were discovered and rescued. I could see what appeared to be sharks swimming in the area.

Since we know my age isn’t a reason for me to have this much fatigue considering all the older people who are more active than I am, and since we know nothing is wrong with my heart and my TSH is under 10, I really do think sleep apnea is the main culprit. I thought back in my mind to when I first noticed myself having more fatigue but not crazy fatigue and I was up to about 146-148 pounds when it first became noticeable. It wasn’t until I hit about 157 that it got really bad. For a couple of years, I was in the low 160s and have been around 159 fairly consistently since getting my TSH down. The hunger that goes with dieting isn’t worth bettering my appearance but it would be worth it to get my energy back, and my weight is likely what’s made the sleep apnea enough of an issue to affect my sleep and energy levels. Therefore, if all I need to do is lose 13 pounds I’m gonna give it one more try even if 13 pounds is like 30 for someone like me. I’ll go down to the 1200 calories Rhonda recommended and hopefully, my body will get used to it and I’ll be able to add 100-200 calories if I can eventually get down to around the mid-140s.

Obviously, the culprit was never my mouth structure alone otherwise I would have had this problem all my life. I’m still going to discuss getting a mouthguard made by an ortho with Rhonda, but for now, I’m just not quite ready yet to accept that I’m going to spend the rest of my life tired even if it means I’d just get a whole new problem if I ever did manage to get my energy back.