Eve's Eve in Current Events

The week went by pretty fast. Yesterday, however, was long and full of terrors. It’s one of the shortest days of the year, technically. Class is out for winter break. I have a long weekend. I just wanted it to be the weekend already.

Today was a nothing burger. I binged the rest of Sense8. I did go to the gym this morning and then grabbed some groceries but when I got home I just bummed around. I’ve been pretty lazy lately. I seem to only do things halfway. I just finished everything that I had started here in my apartment. My Christmas gifts are somewhat wrapped. My kitchen was an organized mess. My bedroom was even worse. I didn’t even sleep on sheets last night. It’s the CBD and THC oils that are turning me into my roommate, whom I miss.

I saw my childhood friend again when I was at the gym this morning. I pretended that he wasn’t there. I feel like a snob now. I kept looking over at him. He only does the strength-building machines. He has poor form but I assume that he knows something that I don’t. Maybe I’ll at least say hi next time I see him. That might be tomorrow if I go.

Between sets, at the gym, I planned out my birthday. During the day, my sister and I are going to take her kids to a museum which has a science gallery. I can’t wait to see their faces when they see and get to go on the sailship. Bev is coming and bringing her boys as well. In the evening I am having the girls over and we are going to order Indian food. Leanne doesn’t like Indian food so I will make a Thai Curry soup. I’m not sure what we will do for activities but I got time to think about it.

TMI Warning
I can feel my orgasms again. I unlocked a new one. One that makes my whole body spasm. I can have it as long as I want, as per usual. I’m desensitized to the other method, for now.

The way I used to feel before I ended up painting is how I am feeling. I’m going to write for my website tomorrow. Maybe I will get up the nerve to create content for my socials already… baby steps. My insecurities hit me yesterday about all of that. I gotta shake it off. It’s like a gnawing. Something is gnawing away at me inside. I feel a little out of touch with what I am passionate about. Ever since I started school.

I don’t have any Christmas plans. I’ll be spending this weekend alone. I’ll make myself a little dinner. My mother is hosting a brunch on Boxing Day. I didn’t book it off so I will just have to call in sick. I can’t even do that because my store will be closed so I will just have to send an e-mail to my supervisor. I feel dirty about it but… I haven’t used up my sick days yet. My mother also suggested that I buy myself a laptop on boxing day. I am really considering it.

I suppose I have time to think about some resolutions for 2024. I finally have time for a lot of things. I suppose I have a lot of time so let’s just say mental energy. It’s borrowed time but whatever. I noticed that mind is racing a lightyear a minute. I don’t pay attention it enough.

Blah! Time for bed.