I was never a jealous person. Once I was very self assured, but then life happened and men are idiots. So was I. Sighs Now I can't help it. I'm in a perfectly good relationship and he has to have more friends that are women than men, and nearly half of them use him as their emotional boyfriend. It bugs the crap outta me.
He keeps in touch with all his exes, which I don't care about that, but it's because he can't say no. That's what bother's me.. He doesn't see things when they are not innocent, for what they are. I stumbled across a rather disturbing screen shot on our joint computer the other day where one of his female friends were on cam, and he was telling her how beautiful and wonderful she was, and how there wasn't anything about her he didn't like.
Personally I find that inappropriate no matter what the context, but maybe that's just me. The thing is when we started our relationship I used to tease him because he wouldn't even look at porn, which I find nothing at all wrong with. He was a ridiculous prude, and sometimes judgmental because of it. Now he's always subscribing to some new chicks page that fits his idea of hot or sexy, only they arn't porn sites they are people.
Porn is one thing, chatting it up with the five million girls that turn you on is completely different. =-= I just can't help it it's not doing me any favors as I try to focus on buffing up my self-esteem. I didn't used to be this girl, and now I feel awful when I get so vehemently frustrated.
A ton of the problem would be solved if he spent as much time with me or offline as he did online chatting with various online friends. I've tried talking to him about it, but to no avail. Oh well at least I have a place to rant about it now.
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