Intention Deficit Disorder: The Remix in Current Events

I’m struggling to organize my thoughts today. Mind you, it is first thing in the morning and I’ve only had one sip of my mushroom coffee. I seem to be very concerned about whether or not my roommate is home. I don’t see any signs that she is awake. It isn’t likely that she has already left for work. She would only have left this early if she took her bike which is still on the balcony. I feel ambitious today to work on my projects and the only thing that could ruin it is if she has a random day off.

Aside from her potentially having a long weekend, we finally broke the tension yesterday evening. There was nothing special about the evening, we just finally interacted like old times. I put on Just Like That for us to watch while we ate supper and we made fun of how horrible it was.

Work yesterday, I felt kind of bad. I was getting along with Linda fabulously, like old times. My boss and I are getting along fabulously as well. My boss has been a little weird, a little bit of a suck-up. She knows there have been investigations about her and she knows that I am involved. I didn’t start it this time. I did bring up some stuff to the store manager who forwarded it to the district HR, there will be a meeting with her soon enough. I feel dirty because the shit will hit the fan, eventually.

I fell asleep feeling very flustered. This morning I woke up feeling hungover. On Sunday, Facebook and Instagram will start to restrict content for Chinadians. Only the voice of the state matters. Health Canada is aiming to remove all the products naturopathy uses. From supplements to whatever else. Only Big Pharma matters. It’s mental illness at this point for anyone to agree with any of it after the last few years. They’ve been nothing but liars and coerced people into acting against their best interests. This is why I call them the Cable News Suicide Cult. Not that Chinadians know this because our news is funded by the government. Everybody has been distracted by the submarine and I’m just wondering why they’ve clogged the news cycle with it. What are they not reporting? I have a few ideas.

The comments on my Reels on Facebook, my god. It’s just old and out of touch Gen X and boomers trying to be trolls. They’re not even good at it.

There was a shift in me after my previous entry. I finally have motivation. My mantra, apparently is, Intention Deficit Disorder. Once I catch myself trying to doom scroll or be lazy I think those words and then I feel vindictive and spiteful which is what motivates me. Immediately after that entry I went for a run, did a leg workout and started to research how to start a website. That is my project today. Instead of doom-scrolling on my phone, I started to read. I give myself some time on my phone but once I catch that I’m no longer in control I think of those three damn words Intention Deficit Disorder and I toss my phone across the room.

Hustle Culture, I did not realize there was a term for this breed of people. I feel like it is self-explanatory. These people hustle like there is no tomorrow. These are the people who work 9 days a week, have 8 businesses they are trying to grow, 7 investments they are trying to juggle, have 6 part-time jobs they are trying to balance, they have 5 passive incomes they are trying to maintain on only 4 hours of sleep, they exercise 3 times a day, eat 2 meals a week, and sell 1 pyramid scheme after another. They are so unhinged and detached whenever they are on podcasts talking about their grind. They’re always getting into weird shit. The ice baths, the latest go-go juice, and crazy diet fads. They promote the most bizarre studies about things nobody asked for, etc. These are not happy people. I’m totally built for it.

I’m still a student of astrology and I’m learning more about it by studying my own chart. I started with the basics, the position of the planets. I finally got around to learning about the houses and the planets in the houses. Now I’m working on the aspects, the conjunctions, textiles, opposites, etc. Then I just have the degrees left. I have a lot of aspects. 7 sextiles, 5 conjunctions, 3 squares, and 2 opposites. I learned that the 29th degree is another… hex. My 12th and 6th house are at 29 degrees. My 6th house, which has a reputation for misfortune, is bad enough with my Scorpio Moon, Mars and Pluto in it. My Mars and Pluto are even conjunct. My south Node is there as well. Let’s broil everything in that house with the 29th degree. It can be a degree for fame, however. That’s a joke. Also a degree for an evil tyrant. This is a Leo degree.

Anyway, I finished my coffee. I am looking forward to my website project today. It’s just going to be a blog, at first. It will eventually tie everything together. I’m going to write about what I am witnessing in the world around me. Modern philosophy. I’m just a product of the times, after all. Then I want to grow it into podcasts. The odds are not exactly in my favour for high success. Astrologically, the odds absolutely are built for very high success but I need to be realistic. This will just be a creative outlet for me. It can take years before any real success comes from it. I just hope that what I plan on using for a blog name and domain name isn’t taken.

Of course, I have fears and anxieties creeping in. Whatever!

Anyway, on with my day then.