Dark Night in Current Events

I’ve come to realize that I am still experiencing what is known as the Dark Night of the Soul. It’s not a term I like to use because the New Agers ruin everything. It is a term they use to describe a spiritual awakening. They take it to a weird space where there are soul contracts, galactic confederations and a mission to raise the Earth’s frequency. It’s just about waking up to the world within yourself. The stages are as follows: 1) Initial Crisis 2) Dissolution 3) Surrender 4) Confrontation with Self 5) Reintegration

This process is not linear, of course. This started when I lost my job in 2018, or 2019? I hate that place and I knew it was going to have to quit me. It defined me for 13 years. I had a rare opportunity to do some real searching. I was at the top of my game and was still not happy. It was never the content in my life that was making me miserable but the context. It is now 2023 and I’m still at it because I have not surrendered. I need to let go and let God, so to speak. I will have to reflect on this.

There is something called a Schumann resonance which has to do with a set of spectrum peaks in the extremely low-frequency portion of the Earth’s electromagnetic field spectrum. Some New Age movements have taken this to a weird place as well. We are receiving spiritual downloads that are unlocking our DNA, according to them. I don’t know what to make of it but since yesterday people are starting to pay to attention because of how active is suddenly got. I would call myself an Old Ager as I no longer need to believe, I know what our ancestors were teaching across history and culture. Matter is light slowed. It is force and motion in an exact state of equilibrium. Torus fields. We are in an electromagnetic field and the field is GOD. It is zero-point energy. Everything audible, visible, and tangible is just the release of that energy. It is conscious and intelligent but incomprehensible. We can link our consciousness to it. As we are in a restless ocean of planetary magnetism, this Schumann resonance is curious. To say the least. If there is any truth to these downloads, it will not be comfortable. It would be triggering a Dark Night. You have to die a thousand times.

I have to admit to myself that I am addicted to my phone. I need a tech detox. I have been doom-scrolling most of the day. I did that yesterday as well. I need to get a grip. What purpose is this serving? For starters, my natal chart demands a lot of information. I’m doom scrolling to listen and learn. It’s also my escape from this civicus. This prison we are spiritualizing. I am not reintegrating well, as it were. I have not surrendered a lot of my old self.

I remember my last tech detox. I think I went a year without reading any comments here on Prosebox. I did not want to polarize with anyone. It’s taxing and not worth it. It’s only worth it if there is an audience because I will never sway the person I am polarizing with but I may sway somebody else witnessing the interaction.

Anyway, my weekend was alright. On Saturday it became clear that my roommate was not going to leave the house to do anything so I decided to. She could probably use some time alone as well. I went to my sister’s. Had a lot of fun with my niece and nephew. My sister is getting me back into Doctor Who. I’m the one who got her hooked a million years ago. Sunday I went for a walk with Kyle. I feel like this is adding up to something when I don’t want it do. I only want to serve God and the truth. However, a supportive partner would be nice. I’m so far from being in a good place for that on all fronts. I am entertaining the idea of him being a future roommate, or at least I was. When I picked him up I needed to use his bathroom and that bathroom was disgusting. I’m like, nope!

I started my day at work in a bad mood. John bombarded me with his usual diatribes and it brought up everything there that makes me feel sour and so I felt sour. I kept to myself and just did my job. My boss did a quality check on a bay that I serviced and then called the whole team to come look at it. The bay, the shelves, were a disaster. We have two types of service, one is to fully service the bay and the other is to just stock the empty shelves. I am the only person on my team who is willing to fully commit to the latter. It felt so vindicating to have her show the whole team that leaving the bay a mess is exactly standard. They waste so much time and judge me for being in and out. This bay is serviced!

I did pick up one shift this week, we shall see if I get any calls about other job opportunities that I applied for this weekend.