It's getting real. in Life

First nonstress test yesterday, baby did fine. I was so nervous my pulse was elevated, lol. I don’t always feel him so I was worried he’d fail because I didn’t feel when he moved! But i just concentrated real hard and i did get a few movements and they said he “exceeded expectations.”

Obgyn appt today, and met with an NP again because they ran out of doctor appts (I’ve actually demanded that I wouldn’t meet with the other NP who told me that if you fail the glucose test early in pregnancy you definitely already had diabetes and then doubled down on it when I questioned it, and she was wrong, but I said I’d do this one appt with the other NP, and then I wanted doctor’s appointments, and they did that for me). So she brought up induction, which i’ve talked to two of the doctors about, and they both agreed it was a good plan to schedule for 39+0 but that the hospital would “Decide” or “Call me in” I’ve heard both things. So she brings this up, and I tell her that’s what I’d talked about and she’s like “well we can’t wait to schedule it” and i’m like, “yeah i just meant that was the date for request, and we picked that since it might be a few days before they call me in” “well no, that’s not right” and then by the end of the convo she’s telling me she’ll request 3 days (39+0, 39+1, 39+2) and they’ll pick. Like isn’t that exactly what I was saying.... it’s like she couldn’t listen to what I was saying. I’m not an idiot and i’ve discussed this several times before and everyone else understood what I was saying so like… wha? Anyway, not impressed. It felt like she was just talking a lot herself and not really listening based on that confusion. And I’m not sure why both of the NPs seem to give me this feeling like they think they know things and i’m dumb, which I am absolutely not, and none of the doctors have made me feel that way…

Anyway, yeah we almost have a date, so that’s pretty crazy. (I’ve probably talked about this before, but this is a medical induction, not an elective, they want it between 39 and 40 weeks due to gestational diabetes, advanced maternal age, and ivf risk. And I just requested earlier in that time period for childcare reasons and so that kid gets to meet her little brother and not have to wait two weeks until her next visit) She told me to call by Monday if I hadn’t heard anything back about the date. (I hope she’s right that they’ll pick a date though, because my friend who delivered there in December had an induction put in and basically she was on call, and she got called at like 6 pm like 5 days after the request and they said “can you get here around 7ish” and i don’t even live close enough for that! Plus I’m going to be so nervous if it starts getting close to 40 weeks, knowing that the induction process can take a few days sometimes)

Just got my urine analysis results back in the account and have “Trace” protein in urine. Last week was negative, hope this isn’t a sign that I’m going to end up with preeclampsia in the last two weeks…