Why in Torridaussity Two

Am I sobbing at 2:30 AM on Christmas Eve? Good question. Today the 24 although now is the 25th was the one year mark of my hospitalization. I’m having a mental breakdown I think processing everything that’s happened to me in the last year. I teared up at church tonight. Tomorrow morning I’m doing the service and my message was the one I was to give last Christmas Eve. I hope I don’t cry.