Get Over It in Current Events

I woke up bitter and jaded. What else is new? I’m just over this cough. It’s not bad, I’m just over it. I went to work the last couple of days which didn’t help that situation but it did help my financial situation so any win is a win.

I am also feeling a little lost. I knew this was going to happen. I even mentally prepared for it. I can’t connect to anything. I get to have a little reset. I can create new connections to people places and things. I know which habits I want to let go of and which I want to make, and I will attempt that this weekend. This existential crisis happened the last two times that I was sick. Well, healed.

I was just writing down my list of things that I need to get done when I remembered my dream from last night. I woke up, in my dream, a brunette again. I couldn’t figure out why the sterling was gone but I was also severely balding. I was stressed, pressed and depressed about it. I think that is why I woke up in a bad mood.

I did a detox bath when I got home yesterday. Ever since I started taking iodine the bald patches on my legs have filled in. I have two bald spots on my legs left but it is indeed filling in. So, the alopecia that I was experiencing seems to be correcting itself. On my legs at least. I think that is what contributed to my dream. Also, Esan. The ASM at work had his last day yesterday. He said goodbye to me and I wish him all the best. When he came back from Iran it was obvious to some of us that he had a hair transplant. It didn’t take so he started wearing a hat. I never would have thought that he would have that insecurity about it at all. I felt for him. I’m also going to miss his gorgeous accent.

I want to tackle that list of things that need to get done in the apartment today but my blood is boiling at the thought of Toni, my roommate, not helping. So I have to remind myself that I have the response-ability to communicate this to her. Which I won’t because then I will feel like a nagging mother.

Whatever. I don’t have to let myself be in a bad mood. I want to go for a walk in the snow later. The first snowfalls have good vibes. It’s beautiful out there. I can’t wait to make memories with my niece and nephew. They’re all sick over there, well healing. I will get to make my way there soon enough. Get to play in the snow and have fun.

I assume that Toni will be putting up the tree this year. I will make room for it today. I’m feeling festive. Even though I am a heretic and I know that the Bible is using astrology to teach physics and biology, etc. The Christmas tree is our spine, the tree of life. Once a month Saturn grows a germ at the base of the spine. It travels down the claustrum, this is Santa Clause. When you perform the right spirituals then that germ is heaved up to the pineal gland where it will fill your body with light. God is light. Matter is just light slowed down. Blah.

Anyway, whatever. I should get on with my day already.