It's like standing there naked. They can see every curve, every imperfection, every intimate lump, roll, and dimple all the wile knowing it's not a seductive or attractive sight. And wile your standing there, they sit in front of you with their pen in their hands and their pads on their laps, judging you. Looking over you critiquing, analyzing, and evaluating what you have to show, and when they have written what they wanted to write they send you away for the next to be just as exposed as you were. The only difference being how much confidence the next person has when he disrobes and if they like what he has to show them.
Juries for musicians can go ether way...
We are told from the very beginning that we must own our performance as if every mistake was intentional. Never apologize for our performance and always have a look of confidence. Nerves can really mess you up mentally. Make you forget your music, give you shaky hands, or fumble about as if your green to the stage. And no matter how many times you perform in front of an audience or musically ignorant enthusiasts, performing in front of "them" is no different then screaming out every insecurity and mistake you have made.
Some times what they have to say can be encouraging, but when you are a high level performer and everyone knows it, that "constructive criticism" can sound very scrutinizing and belittling. But if they didn't do that, they wouldn't exactly be called the masters of their field...
...Of my field.
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