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I stress eat. I eat out of boredom. I eat when I’m depressed. I eat when I’m not hungry. I’m not happy. I hate myself.

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It's very difficult to try and explain autism to someone who has never had to deal with a child who has it. They just don't understand. Every parent has different methods of disciplining their ch...

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I was attacked at my most vulnerable! I'm lactose intolerant, and because a certain restaurant didn't know how to property list there ingredients, I became very I'll. So I'm in a stall hoping a...

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I've been uncharacteristically emotional lately. I think it has something to do with the depression medication I'm on. I have outbursts of anger. I get so angry it brings me to tears, and then I ...

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...means nothing to me. It's hard to constently be disappointed and then exspectd to not have a negative attitude towards her constant talk. Because that's all it really is is talk. I hate feel...

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This year has been a difficult year. I broke up with Clair, I said good bye to Sebastian when he moved to Chicago, and Paige has been too busy to talk to me with her living in China and all. The ...

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It's like standing there naked. They can see every curve, every imperfection, every intimate lump, roll, and dimple all the wile knowing it's not a seductive or attractive sight. And wile your st...

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I have a problem with it... Always kind of have. don't know why, but when some one tells me to do something, I want to do the opposite or just not do it at all. My sister is kind of like that, s...

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Back in september I supported a campaign for Charity: Water. It was a very rewarding experience and together we managed to raise double of what our initial goal was. Now the time has come for ano...

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I hit a deer... it was young, beautiful, and innocent. I took a turn a little too fast and there it was, I hit the brakes but it was a futile attempt. I saw the impact pull the animal under my ti...

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I'm just so angry all the time now. When people talk to me they get on my nerves, I want to scream at them to shut up. When someone makes me angry with there jerkiness I want to punch them into ...

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Sebastian thinks I'm depressed, and he might be right because this is the fifth time I have written this entry, each time quitting in the middle thinking no one would truly care to hear what I h...

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There is a breaking point I which a person succumbs to the weight of their pressures. For some people that point is sooner to break than others. For the people who hold onto what little strength ...

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All day Clair's ring tone sounded off, a desperate attempt to contact me. The constant ringing was driving me crazy. Every time I heard it, my mind would go deeper into isolation. There are rare ...

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There was a strong smell of solvent, clay, and led that lingered in the air. In a corner framed canvas stacked on top of one another cased a dark tower on the wall his art hung. Through the windo...

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I can't sleep very well. With all the feedback I got with my last entry I just can't get the whole thing out of my mind. I have tossed and turned all night long and I know once the sun rises that...

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I took a few days and I mulled it over in my head. I think I've made up my mind to bake up with Clair. I just don't know if it's the best choice to make. It's not like I'm unhappy. Clair makes me...

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People who don't know me would probably see me as a very detached, apathetic, and maybe secretive, person. That perception wouldn't be entirely wrong. What I do remember of my youth is the burden...

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As a lot of you may have already guessed there are a lot of new members who are moving here from another site. Open Diary for many of us was a home away from home and for me it was a place I coul...

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