Redo day 1 and buy me a river in Second 1st

Today’s dizziness will be brought to you by a cup of coffee....in spite of drinking 1 glass of wine last night I feel pretty great this morning. I’m about to ruin it with this coffee though. The creamer I have in the fridge.... had… goes out in 2 days.... that’s how little I’m able to have coffee… that a bottle of liquid creamer would go out of date before I can use it all :( .... Oh coffee how I miss you.... and nuts/peanut butter and onions.... so much....

Rocky and I went and got groceries yesterday. Went to a discount grocery store and WalMart and managed to forget everything on the list at the house .... so we will go out again today. While we were in the car I suddenly thought about how he’s doing so well now. Working, and I’m having trouble keeping up again which is how it should be, being as he’s a good 1/2 foot taller than me. I’m getting the cart again because he doesn’t need it.... I do… towards the end of a store I have to use it like a walker.... I get so unsteady.

I said “You are doing so well on that anxiety medicine. I wonder what caused the anxiety to begin with.” He said ” Didn’t it start about the time we lost Sammy.” He was referring to the cat but that would be wrong. He’d gone to the allergist for the lung issues and we still had him so they had to have started before that. However, if he thinks they were caused by not having an animal in the house I’d be willing to get one if it helps. I want to be ready for a dog. I want the boundless love dogs have.... the pack mentality..... always excited to see you.... BUT with us both working weekends right now I can’t put a pooch through 40+ hours of alone every week.... I’d have to look into doggy day cares and dog sitters for 3 days a week ..... then it seems like far too much. Something to put off until one of our schedules change again or until I’m home full time.

About 1/2 hour after writing my last entry I felt bad about it. I’d actually written very little About me.... just that I have Meniere’s and I’m married really lol cause that’s the important stuff? .... I live in Middle Tennessee and was mostly raised in Michigan. I love with everything I have. I once moved to Colorado to be with someone (moved back in 2 months). Now I’m a large bit of a home body. Mostly because I do not know when I will get dizzy and have to cancel plans so there is no real reason to make them to begin with. If someone can’t understand that I may have to cancel then we can’t hang. I don’t have kids and I don’t want any. I would make a great mom but I am easily annoyed and get frustrated when people don’t listen..... I remember being a kid “I’m not touching you” and “Are we there yet? ” would cause me to just.... well I don’t know because thank God I don’t have to worry about it. I often say that the one child I have is enough (the husband). I am a worrier and I am doing what I can as hobbies to make a few bucks on the side.

Though we haven’t gotten a pallet in awhile we like to buy pallets of stuff and resell it on FB Marketplace, OfferUP, Mercari, and Poshmark. When we do get a pallet this consumes most of my time. I also like to diamond paint and crochet. I also have stuff for needle felting and some delica beads and wish I had one of these.... someday.....

I feel that is a much better description of who I am.... I guess....

I saw the Nintendo Switch I want at WalMart yesterday. Rocky said “If you go get the guy with the key I’ll buy it for you. I’ve got $500 in my account right now.” .... This is why he doesn’t need a separate account lol I said ” No, I just wanted you to see it so you know what it
looks like.If you have $500 and can buy me something that’s $300 plus than you can put $300 on the A/C and we can get it paid faster.” .... There will always be some reason to not get it..... besides we still only have 1 TV.... and I’m gonna want to not share. Granted it’s also a hand held system .... but I have a switch lite.... and unless we get it from Gamestop in store so I can exchange the lite for some credit.... I’m just not willing to part with that much..... to get a system I barely play..... I mean aside from right now.... playing Stardew Valley and all…

moving on.... I guess I’m going to take part in 2 NoJoMos this year..... I couldn’t find a list for 1 and another was volunteered .... I know it won’t take long to fail as I don’t really do much of anything but work on the weekends..... so I’ll likely work ahead .... or be doing NoJoMo prompts till Mid December lol.....

Time to get on with my day. I managed to not do much yesterday and have to make up for it today..... I mean I did my MTurk goals but got lost more to FB and Prosebox yesterday than cleaning and stuff.... other than groceries anyway.... I kept telling myself it was a gift for having had such a bad weekend.

6:30am and I feel behind lol.... coffee is consumed and I’m still feeling good for the most part… so time for the ups and downs of loading and unloading the dishes.... and laundry.... also, going to do a 3 ingredient crockpot Chicken teriyaki for dinner over rice.... and I have 2 other entries to make at some point.... Then I want to work on Geodude..... I’ve got a meet up about 1:45ish for a ipod pro case (from pallet stuff) .... AND.... The teddy I made a while back with the wanderlust gaze sold! so that’s got to be packaged and shipped out. That’s exciting :).... now I’m thinking I should start listing the pokemon one at a time as I do them instead of doing them all and selling Generation 1..... shrugs