Today in Random thoughts

Lots of sleeping took place today. Don't know why I'm so freaking tired. I'll just take the easy way out and blame the weather. haha It's not what I call artificial tired either. It's full blown I'm sleepy tired. Not sure why. Although, I don't mind it probably as mush as I should. The reason for that is because of the relief I feel that it's not artificial. That being said, I'm pretty lazy lately. That I am upset about. I get really tired out quickly. That sucks. I was going to use this time to read. Oh well, I'm writing instead. I've completely dropped my mother. I have no room in my life for people like that. I'm at the end of my rope. I can't take it any more. I need love in my life. Not judgment, hate, and spite. I want to be happy. And I'm going to do whatever it takes to get it. I want to be happy and I don't care who I have to hurt to get it. I'm so sick of being depressed. I can't take it anymore. There's only one way to go. And that's up. (Or death) And I'm too healthy for the latter. I got a doctor's appointment on the 30th. And I'm going to fix whatever is wrong with me. How bad does it have to be? This bad. I have to make it. I have to make sure that I don't end up like that woman. I will do whatever it takes to not end up like my mother. I do not want to be like her in any way shape or form.