New MoonDay in Current Events

I did not have a good yesterday at work. I committed to napping after my shift which is nothing extraordinary about my day but I woke up irritable. I could hear Toni in her room rolling her joints and I just felt irritated because I had to make supper and clean the kitchen. She does the bare minimum here and she even added to the pile of things to do and clean. I got passive aggressive and did it all very loudly, bordering violently. I put on a flick and blasted it while I cooked. Everything is my stuff after all. That’s probably why she feels entitled to doing the bare minimum. I just feel done with living with this grown child.

I woke up this morning and still felt vindictive and spiteful so I committed to a very long shower to make sure she wouldn’t have time to do so herself. I also made sure I left her to make her own coffee. Before I had my shower I noticed that she drank again last night. She spent the entire evening in her room yesterday. I didn’t see her once. She must have crawled out of her dark room in the middle of the night to drink. When I got out of the shower I noticed that she rinsed her cup to hide that she drank. Come to think of it, that wine was not dried out like usual.

She’s not committed to quitting or anything. Big things have small beginnings but she is definitely an addict. A functional alcoholic. I gave up trying to convince myself that she isn’t. It was Monday for crying out loud.

Whatever, I need to stop giving this situation power over me. I don’t want to have a conversation about this, all of it, but I will have to. She is an adult, I shouldn’t have to but it is what it is.

Today was not much better at work. I was snappy. I was not in the mood for the stores staff shortage. I work in the store but I am not of the store. Venders pay my team to do their vending and the store pays their associates to do sales. They, of course, have side work to do also. We are not expected to help customers, it’s actually really starting to show in our work that we are being bombarded. We are only expected to do the minimum regarding customer support but it’s just been too much. Customers are functional idiots, my team sets the store up so they can win and find their own shit and answer their own questions but as soon as they see someone working they turn their brains off. We are not expected to have product knowledge but these freaks assume that we know every detail about all 30 thousand products that we have. We have to hand them off to the store associates but they have been dead beats. They’re swamped also and I am to get the manager on duty to help get customer support but they are useless also. I got snappy with the MOD today. A situation with an entitled man-Karen was escalating because he was not getting the support he needed and the MOD was not responding to my SOS. I eventually reached out and asked if she was response-able in this situation to help deescalate the situation or if I should try the janitors and she snapped back to say that she sent someone. I got pissy back about why she wasn’t able to communicate that to me. I thought I was going to get in trouble. I refuse to learn how to page the entire store in our ear pieces because I won’t be able to ask for recourse without reading the whole store for filth.

I have a lot on my mind, I suppose. I am thinking too big and need to just focus on what gives me health right now. I also got snappy with one of the covid-nazis in our staff room. She and the other Gen X’ers were ranting about the anti-vaxxers because they have literal brain damage from never detoxing metals from their bodies and thus they cannot produce an original thought and they can only just recite their news or whatever. “You can’t fix stupid.” She said. I have self-esteem but I felt like starting some drama and retorted “we can fix stupid! All we have to do is educate ourselves.” Then she was like “oh! You’re calling me stupid!?” I responded with simple logic and reason and said “that only applies to those uneducated, no? You’re educated right?” Then someone intercepted and changed the topic. I was ready to ask her a million questions about the vaccine to prove that she has a huge knowledge deficit about those products that create disease. These people are in a cult and I am a heretic to them. It is ignorant in their demented minds to actually educate yourself because the news is gospel. Sharing a society with these freaks sucks.

I need to meditate and think about my attitude and the way I am perceiving things. I am clearly projecting something from within and I need to discover what that is. I am also noticing that I am keeping myself radically distracted. Ok, not that distracted but I failed myself this weekend and didn’t accomplish the bigger goals that I had.

I did have a meeting with my boss today. I thought it was going to be about providing proof of vaccination because that existential threat is closing in but it was just a performance review situation. We developed goals for me to work on. The meeting went well. I also learned that I did qualify for the bonus Everybody is getting. I do have all the legal documents and arguments ready to go to put the ball in their court for when that time comes. I have to let myself get fired and make sure I get a letter of termination for what I have to do following that.

I just do not cannibalize babies for healthcare over superstitious beliefs about germs. My elders and knowledge keepers want to return to our way of healing, which is terrain theory, in a captured essence. Big Pharma is a new system of priestcraft, germ theory is a medical religion that we are all being herded into, not our first rodeo. So to speak. Regarding my relatives and knowledge keepers. Germs don’t cause disease and viruses are about as real as cooties. They collect debris that they find in our bodies and tell a computer to sequence a genome. They believe those materials are foreign but it’s all our body. Our cells change shape when exposed to different environments to help detox. We don’t have junk DNA, we have a toolbox. This was proven once again just this April by dr. Stefan Lanka. These vaccine products prevent that from happening and they also create deficiencies so we get bad symptoms when we need to separate the non-self from self so they can sell us medicine to stop that process some more. Everybody is conditioned to run to their medical priest for a petro-potion to stop their detox process which is not meant to be comfortable. Leaving the toxins in you makes things worse. Mainstream healthcare is all built on superstition, viral infection is the new demonic possession. Germ theory is a business model. We are to work with the symptoms and not against them. They are the cure. They are full of information about what we need to help detox.

The image of a defenseless baby’s body getting flooded with these things that are designed to degrade its physiology just breaks my heart. They then have micro-strokes which they cannot communicate to us while they scream in pain. Humanity is just too far from ready to have that conversation. They worship medical $cience and refuse to see how it is all designed to harm us so they can farm us for capitol. Blah, whatever. I’m just a savage heathen to them. A heretic. A blasphemer. The new modern way of calling me that is conspiracy theorist and spreader of false information. Cute. There really is nothing new under the sun.

Anyway, I just needed to vent. My anxiety spiked today so I am bracing myself for impact, depression comes next. I don’t experience sadness anymore, just a need to rest and overthink. Overthinking used to be an awful thing back when my mind was such a toxic place. Now I can get lost in thought and just enjoy every boring minute. I suppose I will just go do a leg workout now and then go for a walk outside. Maybe I’ll find a bench and just finish my book God-Man the Word Made Flesh. I am almost done. This one explains the allegories of the Bible that explain biology and the returning science of how to raise the oil in our spines to bring a germ, a seed, to our pineal gland to connect our consciousness to the higher self. A science we all knew. Also it dips into how the Bible, which is astrology, also gives us the periodic table. I have a separate book for that one. The zodiac gives us biology, chemistry, philosophy, cosmology, astrology, all of which is not separate from our true being. Our ancestors didn’t use algorithms to explain this science they used allegories because they can hold far more information. What we did, and do, is we spiritualize our own prison by believing everything to be outside of us. We then refuse to go within and become whole. It makes room for the devil, the counterfeit Christians believe. 666, it is carbon. 6 neutrons, 6 electrons and 6 photons. It is material and we need to bring our souls to the material but we think everything is devil. It’s all backwards. The truth is way stranger than fiction. It’s too much to learn and process. It is needed to know because our entire political, legal, and monetary system is 100% esoteric and has everything to do with capturing our soul. In this turning of the age the old paradigm dies once we re-member who we are. We need to use law, politics and currency to get out. We are in the place where souls get eaten. We need to get status, standing and capacity to return to the land of the living. It’s complicated and high concept and just leaves me in awe whenever I learn more about it. It’s right in front of us and in the language we use. It’s so obvious now.

Blah, anyway, on with my evening then.

Last updated September 21, 2021