I've always felt safe writing here until the past few days in Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of HAPPINESS

Why is it that when someone gets disgnosed with Covid suddenly everyone looks at them like they’ve been out maskless at large parties? As if I haven’t been wearing a mask no matter what this entire time. As if I don’t use sanitizers and wipes. At work (I work in education), I wipe my chair, and table and anything that I touch or that has been touched by anyone. That’s what I’ve been doing the entire time, but NOW that I’m at home fighting Covid, but I haven’t had a vaccine, a DIARIST here says that I do not take my job or the kids I serve seriously because I’m not vaccinated yet? Are you mad? Whether I’d had the vaccine or not I could still be sitting here suffering. I still would’ve been contagious at some point. I don’t judge ANYONE for their choices unless they blatantly just want to say “Covid doesn’t exist”, but how dare this hateful, judgemental person BLAME ME! Because somehow if I had the vaccine I miraculously wouldn’t be suffering sitting here with the disease? I’m too old to let someone who I don’t know judge me, but I have never experienced this here. Never have I ever stated that I WAS ANTI-VACCINE. I’m ALLOWED to be unsure about the vaccine. There are many WITH the vaccine that are unsure as well. Even had I gotten my first dose a week ago, I’d still be sitting here. When did this world become so BLACK AND WHITE. Somehow because I’m not vaccinated I’ve been grouped with anti-vaxxers and anti-mask wearers.

I’m going to say this and then I’m going to move on....I don’t wish what I’m going through on my worst enemy. Could it have been avoided? No, because I’ve done everything I could. There’s absolutely no data out there that says had I had the vaccine I wouldn’t be sick right now nor would I not have been contagious. Vaccine does not mean you cannot get Covid. You want a vaccine? Go get one. You got the vaccine? Go get your booster? You want to wait for FDA approval? Cool.

Don’t come around here judging me. I Thank God every day that I have mild symptoms, but rest assured, mild does not mean NONE, Even after my entry the other day, I had one of my worst days thus far (yesterday).

I’m just so heartbroken to find out Prosebox is not ALWAYS a safe place.

Since I’m a “wreckless person”, should I find out where I got it from and go after that person about whether or not they’re vaccinated? Because they didn’t care enough about people and may not have even known they had it but passed it on to me? How RIDICULOUS, Judgemental, hateful and NAIVE do I sound? Nevermind all of the people I know and work with personally who do have their shots and don’t wear masks.

I’ve said all of this to say, do what’s best for you and your family. ALWAYS.

Last updated August 19, 2021