3/28/21 9:12pm in The Troubled Mind of a Helpless Teen

i need to be kissed. the need for a human presence is still there but… i really need a good kiss. ik that technically i have had a “first kiss” but i don’t count them. i mean the first real kiss. i need that desire, and want to feel wanted. those kisses that are described in books? the ones that start as something simple and quickly deepen as the walls come down and it’s just pure craving, only a need to be closer and closer to them? i need it. i’ve always craved that, but i really wish i could manage that. idk how to make this pass so i can be “normal” again.
why do i still have to miss him, too?