my manager took me aside and asked if i was doing ok after our chat. She thinks i need to talk to manager D about my concerns and shes going to address some of the others. Such as the “preferental “treatment. She did say a few things that kinda make me go shit… Not that im in trouble. Just that… shit. If you remember my last post i may have mentioned talking to my other co workers the part time kids. So shes worried that it becomes a gang up on D if i speak more with them. What im dealing with and what they are dealing with is two different cakes.
For one, she literally said she chooses not to overly care if the part time kids get their feelers hurt when they are instructed. They are taught but only when they show some dedication to work. As part timers and kids, she expects them to leave the job sooner rather then later as they find something else. she said she CAN care about them and whatnot, but she chooses to focus her energy on her full time. Basically full time employees are a family. A tight knit, we must work together family. We are cogs and we must function together to work. Part timers are like extended family. Cousins and whatnot. We love them, but when one goes away, we wont notice. And i do get this position.
So i did say i dont feel manager D is being malicious. More like Either neglectful or i cant do anything right.
IE she dosent hate me, she just dosnet really like me.
But then today is D’s day off, Its my monday, I only work 2 days a week with her due to our schedules. My 2 days off then her 2 days off then work together 2 days then im off again. ( we do 4 on 2 off) So she came in and said hello. how am i doing ect. Then when i saw her when i left she said goodnight sweetie. So maybe we just really need to learn how to live with one another. Maybe im too up for her sometimes. In any event, im going to make some quick soaps and give her some and ask her what i need to do to make our relationship at work better. Because i dont like the not speaking or being watched, or not utilized. After 5 months there, i feel like im capable of taking on the responsibility of being able to stock shelves in the department i clean daily . Manager M has told others im a great teacher. I LIKE that kind of responsibility lol. If we cant learn to joke around with one another. At least we can learn some respect and kindness.
I fully realize i need to make some progress and changes too. Im far from perfect. But this is literally the only thing that keeps me from enjoying my job fully. Most of the time i enjoy it quite a bit.
Well time to make some soap i guess.