Long overdue and much needed update. So the last I wrote I got potentially life altering news from the man I’ve been seeing. It pulled the rug out from me. I was vague and still won’t share exact details, but some of you thought it was a break up message and it was not. We aren’t in an exclusive relationship at this point although I haven’t been seeing anyone else so no break up could really happen in the traditional sense. After processing the information given to me and talking with someone about it. I’m mentally better and although I have seen him once since the text I’m not sure how much longer we will continue to date. I’m 40, I long for and want a commitment, marriage, children somehow and he just seems content to meander along as things are and while I first I was content, it’s now not enough. We need to have a serious talk.
In other life altering news my dad slipped and fell on the ice two weeks ago and broke his good shoulder on his dominant arm so he can no longer (until it heals) take care of my mom and the house so I’m working all day then going to them every night to do what they can’t. I have no problem with this other than my already tired self is extra tired. I take them both tomorrow for their first covid vaccine shot. I pray they don’t have any adverse reactions.
My brother after almost a year and a half may have finally gotten a job however, his past financial issues may block his final offer, we pray since he’s fixed his past mistakes that it won’t hurt him.
Lastly finally saw a rheumatologist turns out I don’t have RA or Lupus so they took 7 vials of blood and around 20 xrays and now I wait to see if anything shows and gives me answers to the pain. I’m choosing at this point not to be vaccinated because if I get sick from it then I couldn’t take care of my parents and yes if I get covid that would also be the same, but I at least want to get them taken care of with both shots before I think about mine.
Thanks for all your concerns over my last entry, I wrote it pretty soon after the event and the unknowns and shock had be shook. I really am a lot better now. Take care all.