Update in Torridaussity Two

  • March 8, 2021, 9:20 p.m.
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Long overdue and much needed update. So the last I wrote I got potentially life altering news from the man I’ve been seeing. It pulled the rug out from me. I was vague and still won’t share exact details, but some of you thought it was a break up message and it was not. We aren’t in an exclusive relationship at this point although I haven’t been seeing anyone else so no break up could really happen in the traditional sense. After processing the information given to me and talking with someone about it. I’m mentally better and although I have seen him once since the text I’m not sure how much longer we will continue to date. I’m 40, I long for and want a commitment, marriage, children somehow and he just seems content to meander along as things are and while I first I was content, it’s now not enough. We need to have a serious talk.
In other life altering news my dad slipped and fell on the ice two weeks ago and broke his good shoulder on his dominant arm so he can no longer (until it heals) take care of my mom and the house so I’m working all day then going to them every night to do what they can’t. I have no problem with this other than my already tired self is extra tired. I take them both tomorrow for their first covid vaccine shot. I pray they don’t have any adverse reactions.
My brother after almost a year and a half may have finally gotten a job however, his past financial issues may block his final offer, we pray since he’s fixed his past mistakes that it won’t hurt him.
Lastly finally saw a rheumatologist turns out I don’t have RA or Lupus so they took 7 vials of blood and around 20 xrays and now I wait to see if anything shows and gives me answers to the pain. I’m choosing at this point not to be vaccinated because if I get sick from it then I couldn’t take care of my parents and yes if I get covid that would also be the same, but I at least want to get them taken care of with both shots before I think about mine.
Thanks for all your concerns over my last entry, I wrote it pretty soon after the event and the unknowns and shock had be shook. I really am a lot better now. Take care all.

Evelyn March 09, 2021

Glad you're doing better. hugs

Always Laughing Evelyn ⋅ March 09, 2021

Thank you 😊

colder March 09, 2021

I'm glad you are asserting yourself on wanting to be exclusive in a relationship and wanting more for your life. I hope you find it!

Always Laughing colder ⋅ March 09, 2021

Thank you me too.

Confessions_of_a_love_addict March 09, 2021

hugs glad you're doing better. Sorry to hear about your dad, I'll keep him in my prayers.

Always Laughing Confessions_of_a_love_addict ⋅ March 09, 2021

Thank you

Small Town Girl March 09, 2021

I was just discussing with my BFF the other day as to why men can't commit. Its so frustrating and leaves you with little hope. Sorry you continue to muddle through dating nightmares.

Always Laughing Small Town Girl ⋅ March 10, 2021

My dating life or lack thereof has always been a nightmare so I'm used to it. Often I question if I really am just better off alone. I just pray for peace in whatever path my life is to take.

Small Town Girl Always Laughing ⋅ March 10, 2021

I am not ready to accept that I will be alone forever. Mentally I cannot go there yet.

Always Laughing Small Town Girl ⋅ March 10, 2021

I don't really want to be alone I just get sad at all the pain.

Small Town Girl Always Laughing ⋅ March 10, 2021

Oh I hear that. The loneliness is painful to me.

Always Laughing Small Town Girl ⋅ March 10, 2021

It's all painful I hate it lol

Small Town Girl Always Laughing ⋅ March 10, 2021

Yes, that's true.

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