My Mom Is Gone in Random Public Stuffs
- Feb. 14, 2021, 11:50 p.m.
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I had to make that decision today.
I got the call at 1915 ish. There were so many alarms going. They were doing CPR and trying to get her intubated.
I cried and told her that I love her and that it was ok that she rest.
They stopped and she was gone. Just like that.
I heard yelling…alarms…even a saw.
I flashed back to those conversations with her.
That was one of the hardest decisions I had to make. Logically, I know that is what she wanted, but I still feel horrible. I feel like I should’ve done more.
That’s why I couldn’t be an ER nurse. I could barely do hospice.
I keep telling myself she is pain-free.
But I still feel horrible.
She’s not hurting anymore. She’s with her loved ones she missed.
I still feel guilty for letting her go.
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KittyGotClawz ⋅ February 15, 2021 (edited February 15, 2021)
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I’m so sorry for your loss
DevilishlyInnocent KittyGotClawz ⋅ February 22, 2021
Thank you.
Shattered ⋅ February 15, 2021
Surrounding you with warm hugs and love. I’m so, so sorry.
DevilishlyInnocent Shattered ⋅ February 22, 2021
Thank you.
The Thirsty Oriental ⋅ February 15, 2021
I’m so sorry. Thinking of you.
DevilishlyInnocent The Thirsty Oriental ⋅ February 22, 2021
Thank you.
Deleted user ⋅ February 15, 2021
Oh honey I'm so sorry for your loss. hugs to you and yours
DevilishlyInnocent Deleted user ⋅ February 22, 2021
Thank you.
Small Town Girl ⋅ February 19, 2021
I am so sorry! I didn't realize you had to make the decision. You did enough. She is at peace. Try to take comfort knowing her pain is over. She is free.