My Mom Is Gone in Random Public Stuffs

  • Feb. 14, 2021, 11:50 p.m.
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I had to make that decision today.

I got the call at 1915 ish. There were so many alarms going. They were doing CPR and trying to get her intubated.

I cried and told her that I love her and that it was ok that she rest.

They stopped and she was gone. Just like that.

I heard yelling…alarms…even a saw.

I flashed back to those conversations with her.

That was one of the hardest decisions I had to make. Logically, I know that is what she wanted, but I still feel horrible. I feel like I should’ve done more.

That’s why I couldn’t be an ER nurse. I could barely do hospice.

I keep telling myself she is pain-free.

But I still feel horrible.

She’s not hurting anymore. She’s with her loved ones she missed.

I still feel guilty for letting her go.


Barbara Bad February 15, 2021

Oh sweetheart, how hard for you. 💔 I'm sending you healing love, so sorry for your pain. xxxxx

DevilishlyInnocent Barbara Bad ⋅ 5 days ago

Thank you.

KittyGotClawz February 15, 2021 (edited February 15, 2021)

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I’m so sorry for your loss

DevilishlyInnocent KittyGotClawz ⋅ 5 days ago

Thank you.

Darkest Days, Brightest Nights February 15, 2021

Surrounding you with warm hugs and love. I’m so, so sorry.

DevilishlyInnocent Darkest Days, Brightest Nights ⋅ 5 days ago

Thank you.

The Thirsty Oriental February 15, 2021

I’m so sorry. Thinking of you.

DevilishlyInnocent The Thirsty Oriental ⋅ 5 days ago

Thank you.

Small Town Girl 7 days ago

I am so sorry! I didn't realize you had to make the decision. You did enough. She is at peace. Try to take comfort knowing her pain is over. She is free.

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