Sit there and wonder if God loves you? Gives any kind of tidily two wink about you? I once thought that God hated me. I believed he was there because I could not believe that this whole world came together randomly. It’s just too complex and I feel that something must have created it.
Back when I thought God hated me, I did pray at first, but all I could see were the bad things happening in my life, and let me tell you, there were a lot of bad things. I was so depressed I could see no good in this world at all.
I do not know why God made it so I could have a chance to have an experience with Him, and to exchange this deep sorrow and sadness I had with joy and happiness. It’s been almost 6 months and I am still astounded. Even when I am going through something, because going through things don’t stop, and I am crying, my soul is still happy. Isn’t that a weird thing?
We used to live with God as spirits, and we decided to come here and have physical bodies so we could experience things that we couldn’t before. This life is like a huge test, a huge trial, and the reward if we complete the task correctly is a good one. Finding the right path brings peace to your soul and helps you finish this life. One of the things we were to experiment here is joy. Imagine that…