I poisoned myself with an illusion. I don't know why, I guess I wanted it, I was begging for it. We built it brick by brick and we laid a foundation both of us clearly sucked into the same trap. And one of us started to realize that we'd have to learn to live without the other and that person wasn't me. I wanted something beautiful and my summer of 2013 was the most beautiful I have ever seen my own soul because you were in it. And now it feels like you when you left despite all your words you took that piece from me and it hurts. Long distance hurts so bad.
Then some how very slowly we started to poke holes in the wall be had built together and slowly and still now we destroy it because we can't find the words to say, I feel 2 steps back and I don't know why. I don't want to feel this way anymore I want my best friend back! I want the man back that held me in my arms as I was ready to fall apart and squished all the pieces back together. But now I'm scared you're never coming back and I know I'll never get that piece of myself back from you because with you is where they were meant to be.
Like star stuff we are spinning and collecting pieces of everyone we encounter and I strongly believe that that's what makes us who we are. But I know your something I'll never get over. I never had someone make me feel the way you did and yea maybe I got attached and I only have myself to blame for the heartache I feel right now. I just wish you would talk to me. Where do I go from here?!?
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