Adderall Day... Whatever in Mental Health

  • Nov. 5, 2020, 7:57 a.m.
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Experiment failed. Extreme mania was triggered. I was clenching my jaw so hard for several days that it still hurts after not taking any Adderall for 3 days, like I got punched on both sides of my face. I wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t eating, I wasn’t functioning.

The first day of mania wasn’t SO bad, but it wasn’t fun, either. After about 3 days I knew there was no way I could continue like that without ending up in a psych ward, so… yeah. And it was election day. There was no way I was going through that while in extreme mania. Not healthy at all. So, I didn’t take it that morning, and I had a great day with little stress or worry.

Lesson learned, I guess. Can’t treat ADHD without having the bipolar under control, and the bipolar is very much not under control. Never has been, really. So, next steps are… nothing. It would take me months to get into a new therapist and months with that new therapist before they would refer me to a psychiatrist for meds, and I just don’t have months to devote to all that right now. Maybe once I move to Chicago.

I’ve gone untreated for various mental illnesses for the vast majority of my almost-43 years. I’ve survived because that’s what I do and that’s what I’m going to keep doing. I’m good at that.

Deleted user November 05, 2020

Read a few of your entries... You are taking Adderall it's an amphetamine I'm not sure what you expected to happen

🌈 JustWillow 🦄 Deleted user ⋅ November 06, 2020

I was expecting it to mitigate my ADHD symptoms, which is exactly what it did. It also has a known side-effect of triggering manic episodes in ADHD people who also have bipolar disorder, which is also what it did. What happened was pretty much exactly what I expected to happen. That's how finding the right combination of meds for mental illnesses goes. Trial and error until you find the right combination.

But hey, thanks for explaining something that I didn't need explained and for doing it in a completely shitty way! Does being rude and condescending to mentally ill people make you feel good about yourself? Is that your mental illness, or just your special power as a bully?

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