Rumble in Current Events

I feel at a loss for words. I am sitting here in my room with my beer feeling kind of lost. Not because of my new haircut which I haven’t even looked at yet. I feel at a crossroads? I’ve been keeping this to myself but I am starting to feel serious about leaving my city for good. My roots here are not that deep. I’ve never done that. I’ve never made a shift of residence outside my city. Let alone a whole new province. With no place, job or much income. I am aiming for BC. I’ve never seen the ocean or a mountain range. I live in the middle of my continent in the prairies. Little gay on the prairies. I need to rumble with this idea some more. I need to look up how other people have managed to do this. I do have time to figure it out but it feels urgent. It feels right. I need to play the what will that do? game.

When your body needs water you feel thirsty. When your body needs food you feel hungry. When your mind needs to grow you feel… stuck. I don’t know if BC would give me my best life but I want to be somewhere new. It will induce growth so to speak. I will have to force myself out of my fears here. It feels right but it could just be a pipe dream. I dunno.