Sunday Funday in I don't know what I'm doing

Today was a pretty good day. I felt pretty okay most of the day. I went on an 8 mile walk by myself. It was quite nice, until about halfway thru when I really didn’t think I could make it back to my car. I was like “what have I done!?” had a mile inner panic attack but I calmed myself down with some deep breathing and just slowed down my walking and came back to normal. I was listening to really awesome podcast the entire time. Buddhist Bootcamp, it’s very inspiring and brings a lot of comfort and it really motivates me to be better. It really had me feeling good and helped with the long walk. After my moment of panic it was all dandy. I plan to go on these walks as daily as possible. It’ll be good for my physical and mental health for sure.
I was actually invited to go on a walk with my 2 friends earlier in the day but they only brought it up because they know I was upset they didn’t invite me yesterday. I have ignored most all of the messages. I don’t really know what to say and don’t want to act normal. However, it is in my best interest to just move on from it. It shows more on them for leaving me out than on me. I just need to live my best life and understand I can’t control what other people do. It’s much easier said than done for sure, but I’d like to work towards that.
Tomorrow is my last free day before I have to go back to work and get back to my work routine. I am excited and sad all at the same time. I really want to get back to routine , but I also like sleeping in. Life is a struggle. I do prefer to be kept busy though so it it’ll be nice to be back at work and seeing my coworkers. I have missed them. So I hope to make tomorrow a good day of rest and mentally preparing myself to be back at work and on a new sleeping schedule. Fingers crossed.