I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose this one too” I was looking for my mom to ask her if I should worry whether or not when I woke up. I had that familiar ache, longing when I woke up. I couldnt shake it for the whole day that day.
I’ve been thinking about it, maybe too much.
I saw a baby onesie today and I dont know why but it spoke to me. I wish I could start a hope chest…
Maybe I should make a journal for it.
The ache and the longing haven’t gone away completely and I have cramps today which just doesn’t help.