I was paying attention to my thoughts this morning before I got out of bed. They were pretty healthy I must say. Did I level up and become a person with healthy positive thoughts and healthy positive behaviour? [Achievement Unlocked] The answer is who cares. Why I gotta be so serious all the time? I do feel ambitious today. I feel ready to live my life again and that I can approach everything I do differently. I’m so far from perfect but nothing is about perfection. It’s about progression. I am an event. I am happening. I am being existential again lol. I just feel that I have finally processed all of those dense energies that I had been hiding from… so to speak. All of that work has been in my mind. Very little has happened in the external world but that is because I had determined months ago that my external world was not working because my inner world was not working. The content of my life wasn’t the problem it was the context. This mood could just be because I finally slept off my cold. I have the perfect way to describe how I feel right now but it isn’t exactly PG, SUV, Disney, family fun… Parental Guidance is advised. I feel horny for life and I want to grab it by the balls.
Dear Life: Fuck Me? or Fuck You? I’m so eloquently spoken today. Anyways I’m going to go metaphorically lube up and go fuck shit up.
Am I okay? lol wtf