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Some Days… in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…are much better than others. Today/yesterday–not so much.
K.Y.O.* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Todays Obligatory Blue Thought (sorry, these are gonna come out alllll over the place until Im done): Did you know that Id already changed my name? Not only in my mind. Not only did I prac...
Made it to Monday in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
EXMS put his profile back on match.com. Still with the photo that shows 1/3 of me. Still with the bullshit about how hes ready for a serious relationship. This time Im not shocked, but I ca...
Some Guilt Stuff, Etc. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
EXMS so wanted me to see the kids while they are here, and had asked me a while back to do a bunch of things with all of them. Of course, I didn’t know if it was such a good idea, so I always a...
I Just Can’t in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…even believe this. I can’t let it go. Obsessive thoughts. I prayed at church and cried a little. I had a lunch date and it was weird. I excused myself to go to the bathroom and cried a lit...
My Humps in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Ive started four entries since I left for New York and nothing is complete. Got back from my trip last night. Yesterday was a really hard day because, well, I guess because yet another BIG ev...
Weekend Blubbering in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Sad day, but what day isnt lately? Yesterday was sad too, but at least I had friends around in the evening. Yesterday morning I signed up to get a free 30-day pass at a new gym since I let my...
Scabby in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Wow. Some folks here on OD have told me that seeing EXMS would eventually come back to bite me in the ass, and I think thats the case here. Weve seen each other quite a bit during the last c...
Instead of the Ferris Wheel in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Im trying to get my head above water. You should see it here. Im in my office. I have let piles of papers, newspapers and magazines pile up in every nook and cranny of my cube. Today I dec...
Lately. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Yeah, so I escaped from reality over the Fourth of July weekend. Hung with the EXMS. It was actually really, really nice in most respects. Weird some of the time (like the fact that we encoun...
Not Really My Idea of a Summer Fling… in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Im struggling some more, and I cant avoid OD any longer. EXMS and I were together over the weekend. Almost all of it. And it felt soooooooooo soothing. Again, like I rubbed salve on the wo...
A Lovely Wedding in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Sometimes I find that I list out things I want to write about and then never return to do it. Well, I sorta wrote about Lovely Leahs wedding in the last entry and alluded to the fact that it w...
What I Want to Write About in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
..but don’t have time to really dig into right now. Consider this my personal thought-starter page: Lovely Leah’s Wedding Weekend: The torturous task turned labor of love that was getting Sw...
A Must. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Most probably saw this coming…and deep down I did too. In a nutshell: –EXMS and I had a therapy session together this week. It went pretty well, and we agreed in the therapist’s office to do ...
Text Message and Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Not really sure how it happened, but it appears I’ve made a new text friend (?). Will detail later if it blossoms into a true friendship. Weird, he checks on me from time to time to make sure ...
Regression in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’m procrastinating at work. Coming down with a cold. Presentation tomorrow and I just can’t get into it. It’s now been well over a month since the breakup, and I’m not feeling any better. I...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Hangin in. I think I only cried between 6 and 7 times today. It hit me once while I was walking down the hall before lunch and saw this dude (obviously not working) visiting his girlfriend in ...
June 9th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
This one’s late. But what the hell. My job, though I’m struggling to keep up right now Good friends, still Events to attend after work More later…
June 10th–Grateful, etc. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I should just start writing normal entries and then add the “grateful” stuff later, eh? I still can’t seem to snap out of anything right now. It is still so overwhelmingly heartbreaking that I...
What Stage? in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Is this really the anger stage? Mostly, I’m morbidly sad. And it is mixed with allllllll kinds of other things. Yes, anger. Guilt and regret. Shock. Fear. Anxiety. I am wholly consumed ...
June 8th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Trying to get this one in under the wire. Today I’m grateful for: My darling friend, RB who not only went to brunch with me but stayed with me ALL DAY LONG and talked about whatever I wanted...
June 7th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Seriously? I’d rather you kill me now. Drunken pool party Stupid conversations with exes Stupid conversations with girlfriends Stupid obsessions with ex-fiance’s fucking match pr...
Golden Dress* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I am writing because I have nothing left to do with my fingers. Yes, there are some things I could be doing here at work, but today is another struggle. I am leaving at noon to go with my boss...
June 6th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I think I’m doing better, then I sink deeper. I am struggling to find things to be grateful for tonight. Here goes. I will have a party to go to tomorrow night so that I won’t be sitting and...
For CN in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Been meaning to do this for a while now (at her request from her diary)…and just now getting around to it…. <img src=http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v251/GingerDelicious/Ginger%20Snap/DSC0...
