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Sorry About This *edit* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Oh crap, another entry about him… The notes reassure me that EXMS is simply not right (for me anyway), but all I’m really left with now is the harsh realization that I’m single once again. I’m...
Question Marks in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’m so weary from writing about EXMS. This very well may be the last entry I write about him. I’m not kidding. But something weird happened at therapy yesterday, and I just need to get this o...
I’ll Make This Simple in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I was asked in my last entry why I’m not attracted to TMG (hi [Parliament]). Well, the very simple answer is that he is a LOT like EXMS, believe it or not. Not so much in features (though he i...
Sunday Night in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Im back. Not in the best of spirits, but Im home. Due to The Shocking Photo Incident of 08 (previous entry), I sent some emergency texts to TMG while I was gone. Guess who was waiting for ...
Major Setback in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’m in Milan. On a weird computer because mine doesn’t work in my room. I’m actually in a bar (there are computers set up here on the side) in the hotel. It’s morning here, and I hope I can ma...
Au Revoir in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I want to tell you a story, but I’m so exhausted (very long day), and I now have only 4 hours to sleep before I have to get up and pack and leave Paris for Milan. 2 days in Milan and the I’ll b...
The Era Ends in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
It’s waaaaay past my bedtime if I want to do my awesome run at the Louvre in the morning, but I feel like writing. Today started out kinda weird (with the email and all–see previous entry), but...
Almost a Relief in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…to wake up to this. I got an email from EXMS (no edits in grammar/spelling): “I hope you trip is going well. Things here in [our city] have been nice, the weather has been cooling down..alth...
Another Entry… in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…that will make you want to smack me around: I have been pathetically sad the last couple of days (yes, while I should be having the time of my life on my European travels) because after EXMS c...
Obsessed. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Just back in from an almost-frosty run in Hyde Park and an even steamier, luscious shower. Oh my gawd, I did not want to get out of that heavenly warmth. Now I’m sitting on the sofa in my hote...
Here in My Hotel Room. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Just landed in London and checked into my hotel room. Trip is going well, thank you. Spent the last day and 1/2 in Copenhagen, and it was my first time there. It was lovely: Do you know what...
Just Landed in Kopenhagen in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
On a cramped plane bound for Copenhagen (via Frankfurt), I tap this out. This plane is freezing. And I mean teeth rattling frozen. Some nice man gave me his extra blanket, so I have three Luf...
Yes, I’m Here.* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Sorry I’ve been out of touch. But because of a very vivid dream I had maybe a couple of weeks ago, I think I’m going to have to go exclusively faves only. I dreamt that EXMS found my diary and ...
List of Complications in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
You knew it would get complicated, didnt you. DIDNT YOU??!! Why didnt you TELLL MEEE??? (oh, right.) So much going on. So very, very much. I owe you the following things: Whats ha...
Mixed Tapes and Twitches in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
TMG burned a mixed CD for me and gave it to me last night. Its the most thoughtful thing I think anyones given me in a long, long time. He named it The Beauty in Ugly and there are 18 song...
Ups and Downs in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
OK. Decision made. Im NOT going the meds route unless (UNLESS!) I spiral into some kind of freakish depression where I dont want to get out of bed or talk to people or if I cant stop crying...
Double Dose in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Im sucking at updating lately. The dumb thing is, I know that writing helps me get things out and also helps to put things in perspective. AND it just plain makes me feel better. To me, its...
Things That Still…. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…come in the mail: Modern Bride magazine, letters that are addressed to Mr. and Mrs. [Ginger Snap], old mail for EXMS that were from the old, …hang on the wall: …decorate the loft: …make me...
Roll With It.* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’ve been silent, yes. Because there hasn’t been a whole lot to say that you don’t already know. And wallowing in sorrow is so, so tiring and boring. So. What’s been going on in addition to ...
I Am Not Who I Thought in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
No, I am not the person I thought Id be today. I am trying really, really hard not to dwell on this as a loss. Ive read and heard and listened to everything I can possibly get my hands on or...
New Favorite Number? in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Long Article–Healing Broken Heart in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’m still having a really, really tough time. This is the week I was supposed to marry (now 3 days away). I am searching for relief. I found this article tonight and I liked it so much, I wan...
Eye-Opening in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
And now. To counterbalance all the blucky schmudge, I present you with some GOOD. Whenever Im feeling low, low, LOW, someone has always been around to keep me from simply slipping into a chas...
Sludge in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I don’t know. It makes me feel icky and black to write disparaging things, but these are the things I’m going through right now, and it has to come out. I have to get it out somehow, but I jus...
Bottom Line… * added question* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
…I loved him so much more than he loved me. So, so much. There’s a LOT going on in here. I just don’t have time or energy or the presence of mind to write it out just yet. * EDIT* Wait. Ju...
