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Yeah, Yeah, Yeah in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Hangin in. I think I only cried between 6 and 7 times today. It hit me once while I was walking down the hall before lunch and saw this dude (obviously not working) visiting his girlfriend in ...
June 9th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
This one’s late. But what the hell. My job, though I’m struggling to keep up right now Good friends, still Events to attend after work More later…
June 10th–Grateful, etc. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I should just start writing normal entries and then add the “grateful” stuff later, eh? I still can’t seem to snap out of anything right now. It is still so overwhelmingly heartbreaking that I...
What Stage? in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Is this really the anger stage? Mostly, I’m morbidly sad. And it is mixed with allllllll kinds of other things. Yes, anger. Guilt and regret. Shock. Fear. Anxiety. I am wholly consumed ...
June 8th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Trying to get this one in under the wire. Today I’m grateful for: My darling friend, RB who not only went to brunch with me but stayed with me ALL DAY LONG and talked about whatever I wanted...
June 7th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Seriously? I’d rather you kill me now. Drunken pool party Stupid conversations with exes Stupid conversations with girlfriends Stupid obsessions with ex-fiance’s fucking match pr...
Golden Dress* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I am writing because I have nothing left to do with my fingers. Yes, there are some things I could be doing here at work, but today is another struggle. I am leaving at noon to go with my boss...
June 6th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I think I’m doing better, then I sink deeper. I am struggling to find things to be grateful for tonight. Here goes. I will have a party to go to tomorrow night so that I won’t be sitting and...
For CN in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Been meaning to do this for a while now (at her request from her diary)…and just now getting around to it…. <img src=http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v251/GingerDelicious/Ginger%20Snap/DSC0...
How Long? in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
How long is this gonna take? I really need to stop breaking down in tears in the office. I feel like this is worse than if he’d died because I KNOW he’s out there trolling match like a fiend a...
June 5th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Annnnnd here we go again. Today I’m grateful for: Actually RUNNING this morning…yeahhhhhhh…2.25 miles, which is good considering (A) I have so NOT wanted to run lately, and (B) I woke a littl...
Ouch.* REPLY EDIT* in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Gah, today’s therapy was harrrrrrrd. I was open and honest with regards to my side of what happened to make EXMF snap and leave me. Put it this way, I pushed his buttons for the last time, I g...
June 4th–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Today I’m grateful for: Scrounging the CUTEST outfit from the depths of my closet: minty blue print dress…clingy and cut on the bias worn under a cropped mint blue ballerina sweater (somehow ...
How Can I Ever… in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
….thank them??? My parents (well, my dad) called and emailed ALL of the vendors for the wedding today and undid (almost) everything that we had in the works. I just did NOT have it in me to do...
June 3rd–Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Today I’m grateful for: My Papa REALLY helping out my heart by calling all the wedding vendors for me and canceling/informing all parties involved (see previous entry for deets) The therapi...
Monday Morning in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Every morning I wake up, hoping this has all been a bad dream. No such luck this morning. I’m still so shocked that the EXMF is “ready to start and looking for a serious relationship”. How on...
June 2nd-Grateful in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Better do my grateful list for today: Getting out of bed this morning. Having an amazingly understanding boss who talked to me for quite a while about stuff today. Eating something today...
Profile** in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Are you kidding me? I had a sneaking suspicion, and I was right. It took less than 24 hours for EXMS to put a profile up on Match.com. It’s nauseating and it hurts so much to think that he ...
Never Like This in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I have had breakups before, but never like this. In the past, I’d seen signs. In fact, I always knew for sure what was coming, so I either braced myself or I softened the blow. Neither party w...
Starting Today in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I know, you’re going to be so sick of me until I get myself out of this. I took a drive today to get something to drink. I turned on the radio to NPR because I wanted NO part of any music. Bu...
I Did It in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Early last evening I went to a “thing” that someone told me about. It was an event that I was told I wouldn’t want to miss. It was at the convention center, which is walking distance and halfw...
Wreck in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I’m sorry. I don’t really want to have pity parties here, but I need to get this out and I figure this is as good a place as any. I could make these entries private, and I don’t know why I’m p...
Today in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
I am not strong.
At 40. in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
Again, I can’t tell you how much your notes of encouragement mean to me. I have to give a special shout-out to someone who took time out of their holiday on Monday to text me back off the ledge...
The Hole Thing in Open Diary 2001-2018 (Pre-Prosebox)
OK. Deep breaths. I started writing the whole thing out. What happened. The events leading up to EXMS leaving me at a party in a city that’s a 4 hour drive away from home, moving out of ou...
