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3 hours before work. in Since OD is shutting down....
I got up early like I normally do and did laundry. I got some carpet stuff that I let sit for awhile and then vacuumed up. I changed out the wax in my warmers too. My inspection is tomorrow so I’...
Nurse visit. in Since OD is shutting down....
My visit with the nurses was great, as always. They were here about 2 hours this time. I just love having visitors in general and being able to connect with other people. They get me and that mak...
Dr and then ER visit. in Since OD is shutting down....
My Mom and little brother came with me to the dr yesterday. It was nice that they came and my Mom said she plans to be involved with my baby so hopefully she stays true to her word. When we were ...
My weekend has started. in Since OD is shutting down....
I just did day shifts today, yesterday, and Thursday. I am super tired and glad to be home. It’s been windier than fuck all damn day so I got groceries on my way home so I wouldn’t have to go any...
Positive. in Since OD is shutting down....
Things have been going okay the past few days. I’m still feeling good and the hormones have stabilized considerably. I’m really focused on just being happy and taking it one day at a time. I was ...
I feel like myself. in Since OD is shutting down....
Since Friday morning, even before I got the news about having a little girl, I feel sane. I don’t feel as hormonal and even when I think negative or a memory pops into my head, I’m sad for a mome...
My dream came true!! in Since OD is shutting down....
Yesterday started off shitty, thanks to my hormones. I was bawling and inconsolable. I had an incredible night at work and made some decent money for a change. No one pissed me off and everyone w...
Nurse visit, work. in Since OD is shutting down....
So the nurses came and visited for about an hour. I definitely think this is going to be a great thing for me. They are going to come every week for awhile and even after the baby comes. They see...
Whatever. in Since OD is shutting down....
I’ve been a lot more stable emotionally since yesterday. I hope it lasts. I only got to work 2.5 hours last night because we were dead as fuck. If this continues, I’m going to find another job. I...
A few more thoughts. in Since OD is shutting down....
I got tacos for supper, took a bath, and talked to my friend on the phone. She brought up a really good point that I forgot about. I was talking about how I have plenty of information on him and ...
Another day alone. in Since OD is shutting down....
My days off are fucking terrible. I’m always happy to be at home and not go to work but sitting here alone in my apartment gets really depressing and mundane. I had to go take in my urine sample ...
Dr appt, work. in Since OD is shutting down....
My dr appointment went well but I was seriously there for about 2 hours and then had to go to this other place across town for them to take my blood. I opted to do the Harmony test which is where...
A whole new level of depressed. in Since OD is shutting down....
The past few days, well basically for about a week now I’ve felt this nagging, incessant feeling of sorrow and sadness. It doesn’t help that the weather is STILL miserable. These sub zero temps a...
Hormones are a mother. in Since OD is shutting down....
Tuesday was really fucking bad. I was really down and then decided to message Eric. I feel like I just have to keep reaching out to him because it’s his kid too. It was the same old story of his ...
Dental exam. in Since OD is shutting down....
I had to be at the dentist at 8 this morning. It was brutal getting up and starting the car to get there. I am so beyond sick of it being sub zero fucking temps that I could fucking scream. They ...
People fucking suck. in Since OD is shutting down....
It’s been an absolute train wreck of a week and I’m so fucking glad I was off today, I’m off tomorrow and don’t have to return to my shit hole of a fucking job until Tuesday afternoon at 4pm. I h...
Doing alright. in Since OD is shutting down....
It’s been a few days since I blocked Eric again and I’m doing fine. My best friend says I keep trying with him because I do want him around but once I realize that it’s just not going to work and...
Anxious. in Since OD is shutting down....
I think I’ve been alone in my head too much since yesterday and my anxiety is coming back. I really need to start finding people to socialize with on my days off because I hate feeling like this ...
I hate people. in Since OD is shutting down....
So it’s been a pretty decent week, except the past couple of days dealing with people won’t do know how to think before they speak. I was at work Friday night and I was talking to this 17 year ol...
Another day. in Since OD is shutting down....
Today hasn’t been too bad. I of course hung out at home all day by myself like I always do and then I bought a baby swing before work. It’s super cute and I love the colors. It swings, vibrates, ...
Counseling. in Since OD is shutting down....
I had my appointment yesterday and I think it went well. It was definitely nice just to sit down and talk with someone that I don’t have to worry about gossip or bullshit that can make me look at...
Christmas is finally over!! in Since OD is shutting down....
Literally I couldn’t be more thrilled. I fucking hate holidays because I always spend them by myself. I didn’t hear from anyone I was related to yesterday and because it was a full on blizzard, I...
Good morning. in Since OD is shutting down....
I’m having another feel good day and I’m loving it. I told my friend how good I feel and she says I must have gotten over the hump. I’m sure that all the things I was doing had to detox from my b...
Home in Since OD is shutting down....
I worked 4:30 to 8:30 tonight. I had a pretty decent time and then I went over to my friends house. I just can’t believe how awesome I feel. My appetite has calmed down ALOT, my hips aren’t killi...
Shower. in Since OD is shutting down....
I just showered. I love taking showers, it’s literally the best part of my day. I kinda want to go get some baby stuff today like diapers, wipes, and shampoo but I don’t know. It’s cold and I hav...
