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"Her ways were free, and it seemed to me, the sunshine walked beside her."

Townes Van Zandt

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January 04, 2016

Renunciation in Random Thoughts

As i read the Bhagavad Gita, chapter 5 speaks to me. It’s called The Yoga of Renunciation. I don’t know if this will make sense, but what it is talking about is action without desiring the result...


January 04, 2016

Bhagavad Gita in Random Thoughts

The is my current read for the yoga teacher training. A quote… “When you know who you are, you are enlightened. In that Self-realization, the darkness of ignorance disappears in the light of true...


January 03, 2016

Ritual in Random Thoughts

I have this idea in my head. I have always wondered about rituals. To commemorate a death and say goodbye, for transitions in our lives, such as becoming a teenager…but not the rituals that we no...


January 02, 2016

Relocation in Random Thoughts

Warning: title (tidal?) may not be accurately indicative of events real or imagined. No animals were harmed in the making of this entry. Subtitled: A Procedural Today i am cooking an Ayurvedic so...


November 29, 2015

Change in Random Thoughts

I am sitting in my cold home (i like it that way, bundled up in blankets.... but also my house is just cold!) working on my yoga homework, i am backed up to the first one when i should be working...


November 21, 2015

Sensitive in Random Thoughts

I slept in till 5:40, even though I went to bed late- about 10:30. Guess my body is just used to the early rise. I have a couple weird ego boosters yesterday. I need to watch out, because attent...


I have been trying to take what i have been learning about yoga philosophy (tantra), what i have been reading about the ego, and the pain i have been experiencing as a result of this break up. Un...


November 19, 2015

Emotions in Random Thoughts

Our emotions are not ourselves, they are just experiences that we have. Once an emotion (say, anxiety or sadness) subsides, we do not cease to exist. This is a tidbit from a lecture in my yoga te...


November 18, 2015

Pursued in Random Thoughts

I have some catharsis to achieve, but don’t have the time to tell my story. Perhaps i will get to it today some time. My heart feels like it is sodden, so heavy. I am avoiding initiating convers...


Our ritual good night and good morning. gone. now i don’t want to go to bed.


November 15, 2015

Broken in Random Thoughts

I have been broken up with, amicably. Still, here we are in Bend, OR at a hotel with a hot tub. Ending things in a nice way? He thanked me for being me, said I was “too nice” for him. I wonder if...


November 08, 2015

Realization in Random Thoughts

Just a couple quotes from the book that have caught my eye; ideas I was to peruse, but just not right now. “Spiritual realization is to see clearly what I perceive, experience, think, or feel is ...


November 04, 2015

Ego in Random Thoughts

I don’t have much time to write, but i am interested in exploring what i have been learning in my Yoga intensive class. Currently i am reading a book called A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s ...


October 27, 2015

Rope in Random Thoughts

Just as a warning before you continue, this entry may have some explicit content, depending on how detailed i get. About 3 times i have joined a “meetup” style group on Friday nights, for people ...


October 20, 2015

Infinity in Random Thoughts

Somehow i feel as if i don’t stop. I can’t even imagine how people with families have time to themselves (maybe they don’?). Trying to keep regular yoga and trips to the gym, on top of a normal w...


October 01, 2015

Pansexual in Random Thoughts

I have been neglectful in my writing duties, especially since a lot has been going on. If i recall correctly, my last two entries were short and promising more information (for whom?) but i did n...


September 06, 2015

A little heartbroken in Random Thoughts

There is a lot to tell, and I shouldn’t be so hurt. It comes with being incredibly sensitive, I guess. But right now I am not sure how to go forward. So, I will come back and try to get it out. ...


August 13, 2015

A Start in Random Thoughts

I know it’s been a while. Here are three things I brought back from my final counseling session (with this counselor) today: I can change my mind Integrity vs hyper vigilance when sticking to “...


July 10, 2015

Part 3 in Random Thoughts

I decided to write another entry, i imagine if anyone is actually reading this, they are not interested in super long entries. strong text Edit, part 3 Its 7:15 the next morning and i woke bright...


Here is the beginnings of an entry that I will get to later- Counseling today and small revelations Being home after Turkey and the start of a real summer break Little (good) things Nothing as in...


He had been grumpy this evening, and I was keenly aware how how he felt (also knowing it was not my fault- reining in Miss Interpretation). I read Bleak House while belly laying on one couch, whi...


Well, not again really. I have never been the type of person to be jealous in regards to a boyfriend. But I find myself there with Dios. Strange as it seems, I see why. I date and fall in love w...


Greetings from Izmir, Turkey My mantra: Have faith Trust No need for control Listen and pay attention Communicate and open up Those cards don’t need to be held so close, it is ok to share. I am...


June 15, 2015

Frust in Random Thoughts

rated I spent all of yesterday working building a schedule for all the 5th-8th grade students who come to the resource room for special education services- all based on what i thought was the mos...


June 14, 2015

Perseveration in Random Thoughts

I’d kind of forgotten one of my internal ‘quirks’. Or, more to the point, one of those areas I need to bring up in counseling as part of my communication issues. I was going to add this to my ent...


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