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"Her ways were free, and it seemed to me, the sunshine walked beside her."
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Renunciation in Random Thoughts
As i read the Bhagavad Gita, chapter 5 speaks to me. It’s called The Yoga of Renunciation. I don’t know if this will make sense, but what it is talking about is action without desiring the result...
Bhagavad Gita in Random Thoughts
The is my current read for the yoga teacher training. A quote… “When you know who you are, you are enlightened. In that Self-realization, the darkness of ignorance disappears in the light of true...
Ritual in Random Thoughts
I have this idea in my head. I have always wondered about rituals. To commemorate a death and say goodbye, for transitions in our lives, such as becoming a teenager…but not the rituals that we no...
Relocation in Random Thoughts
Warning: title (tidal?) may not be accurately indicative of events real or imagined. No animals were harmed in the making of this entry. Subtitled: A Procedural Today i am cooking an Ayurvedic so...
Change in Random Thoughts
I am sitting in my cold home (i like it that way, bundled up in blankets.... but also my house is just cold!) working on my yoga homework, i am backed up to the first one when i should be working...
Sensitive in Random Thoughts
I slept in till 5:40, even though I went to bed late- about 10:30. Guess my body is just used to the early rise. I have a couple weird ego boosters yesterday. I need to watch out, because attent...
Revel/Revelate/Revelation/Revelatory/Relative in Random Thoughts
I have been trying to take what i have been learning about yoga philosophy (tantra), what i have been reading about the ego, and the pain i have been experiencing as a result of this break up. Un...
Emotions in Random Thoughts
Our emotions are not ourselves, they are just experiences that we have. Once an emotion (say, anxiety or sadness) subsides, we do not cease to exist. This is a tidbit from a lecture in my yoga te...
Pursued in Random Thoughts
I have some catharsis to achieve, but don’t have the time to tell my story. Perhaps i will get to it today some time. My heart feels like it is sodden, so heavy. I am avoiding initiating convers...
I want to say goodnight in Random Thoughts
Our ritual good night and good morning. gone. now i don’t want to go to bed.
Broken in Random Thoughts
I have been broken up with, amicably. Still, here we are in Bend, OR at a hotel with a hot tub. Ending things in a nice way? He thanked me for being me, said I was “too nice” for him. I wonder if...
Realization in Random Thoughts
Just a couple quotes from the book that have caught my eye; ideas I was to peruse, but just not right now. “Spiritual realization is to see clearly what I perceive, experience, think, or feel is ...
Ego in Random Thoughts
I don’t have much time to write, but i am interested in exploring what i have been learning in my Yoga intensive class. Currently i am reading a book called A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life’s ...
Rope in Random Thoughts
Just as a warning before you continue, this entry may have some explicit content, depending on how detailed i get. About 3 times i have joined a “meetup” style group on Friday nights, for people ...
Infinity in Random Thoughts
Somehow i feel as if i don’t stop. I can’t even imagine how people with families have time to themselves (maybe they don’?). Trying to keep regular yoga and trips to the gym, on top of a normal w...
Pansexual in Random Thoughts
I have been neglectful in my writing duties, especially since a lot has been going on. If i recall correctly, my last two entries were short and promising more information (for whom?) but i did n...
A little heartbroken in Random Thoughts
There is a lot to tell, and I shouldn’t be so hurt. It comes with being incredibly sensitive, I guess. But right now I am not sure how to go forward. So, I will come back and try to get it out. ...
A Start in Random Thoughts
I know it’s been a while. Here are three things I brought back from my final counseling session (with this counselor) today: I can change my mind Integrity vs hyper vigilance when sticking to “...
Part 3 in Random Thoughts
I decided to write another entry, i imagine if anyone is actually reading this, they are not interested in super long entries. strong text Edit, part 3 Its 7:15 the next morning and i woke bright...
Selling the soul you swore upon in Random Thoughts
Here is the beginnings of an entry that I will get to later- Counseling today and small revelations Being home after Turkey and the start of a real summer break Little (good) things Nothing as in...
Look on down from the bridge in Random Thoughts
He had been grumpy this evening, and I was keenly aware how how he felt (also knowing it was not my fault- reining in Miss Interpretation). I read Bleak House while belly laying on one couch, whi...
Jealousy, again/partnership in Random Thoughts
Well, not again really. I have never been the type of person to be jealous in regards to a boyfriend. But I find myself there with Dios. Strange as it seems, I see why. I date and fall in love w...
Ya gotta have faith in Random Thoughts
Greetings from Izmir, Turkey My mantra: Have faith Trust No need for control Listen and pay attention Communicate and open up Those cards don’t need to be held so close, it is ok to share. I am...
Frust in Random Thoughts
rated I spent all of yesterday working building a schedule for all the 5th-8th grade students who come to the resource room for special education services- all based on what i thought was the mos...
Perseveration in Random Thoughts
I’d kind of forgotten one of my internal ‘quirks’. Or, more to the point, one of those areas I need to bring up in counseling as part of my communication issues. I was going to add this to my ent...