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Innocence missed in Memories.....or lack thereof...
There are things I wish I never knew Aspects of what makes you, you Things that crawl down deep inside The things that you believe you hide I long for days when it was simple When I wasn’t much ...
Money anxiety in Attempting to journal
So I did it. I bit the dust and purchased a roadside assistance membership. I have wanted one for years, I am stuck driving shitty disposable vehicles and every winter I find myself in at least o...
Attempt #4, maybe succeeding? in Attempting to journal
Trigger Warning, miscarriage/baby loss Oh it has been crazy, I feel like I’ve been stuck in a washer on spin cycle. So Friday my daughter had cramping and spotting. So off to the urgent care we g...
Mothers day in Memories.....or lack thereof...
It’s mothers day today I thought of you a lot I wanted to tell you all the things I learned from what you taught I learned my pain was shameful Secret, dirty, bad That I must also be at fault Fo...
Attempt to journal #3....more successful? in Attempting to journal
Well it has been a whirl wind last couple of days. My oldest (22yrs) came home Sunday for a visit because she had been struggling with depression because she couldn’t find a job where she was. Be...
Attempt to journal #2 in Attempting to journal
I am determined to write a journal-Like entry come hell or high water. I’m not sure why it’s so hard for me i’ve never struggled with literary stuff. I got high marks in everything language arts ...
I'm ok in Memories.....or lack thereof...
I’m ok, no really There’s nothing wrong, at all See me smile brightly? I’m truly walking tall I’m ok, no really My smile never slips I’ll never show you what inside My picture never tips I’m ok,...
Today in Attempting to journal
I had so much hope to start the first one off strong but I can’t get what I want to write down on paper. Like it’s stuck..so I’m going to do a prompt instead. I feel powerless when.... All the ...
Questions 29 and 30 in 100 questions about me
Write about a way in which you are very different from a parent. I think the parent I differ from the greatest is my mother. She is very worried about fitting in, about being accepted,, about h...
Questions 27 and 28 in 100 questions about me
Write about when you think it’s morally acceptable to lie. If your answer is “never,” write about why you think that. I think it acceptable to lie only if it’s for a morally redeeming reason AN...
Inner child in Memories.....or lack thereof...
She huddles in the dark It’s black, it’s empty, it’s void She’s small in only rags Utterly destroyed The sounds are fully absent Nothing fills the air Aside from tiny sniffles From underneath h...
Angry in Memories.....or lack thereof...
It’s so odd to feel this way. I’m 41 now and for the first time that I remember, I’m angry about what happened to me. It changed tonight. Yesterday I didn’t have any feelings toward my brother ab...
Questions 25 and 26 in 100 questions about me
Do you think your hometown is a good place to live? Why or why not? I don’t really have a hometown. I have moved too many times to feel like I have roots that remain in a town even after I’m go...
Questions 23 and 24 in 100 questions about me
Describe a part of your job or everyday work that you loathe As I mentioned previously I do not work, so it’s kinda hard to answer these ones. That being said, the part of my motherly duties that...
I wish i knew you in Memories.....or lack thereof...
I have a younger sister I dearly wish I knew We grew up together Then far apart we grew. We had the same experience The life I cannot know She gets all of the knowledge And I get all the snow I’...
Me, but also...not me in Memories.....or lack thereof...
I wish I understood any part of myself. I think that might be the one thing that bothers me most about having no memories. I don’t feel like there’s any part of myself that I really understand, e...
Questions 21 and 22 in 100 questions about me
Is your home usually neat or usually messy? Why is that? Do you think it matters? Why or why not? My home is usually messy. It is much better than it was. My ex husband has a lot of horder ten...
Strong in It's happened, what now.
Stop telling us we’re strong What we’ve gone through proves our prowess We’re not superhuman Our traumas don’t endow us Strength is not a byproduct Of tears or adaptation To circumstances trapp...
I thought of you in It's happened, what now.
I thought of you again today It was slow and sweet and fleeting I was stressed and pressed and tired And queried a future meeting. Normally this would not be sweet It would not be good or joyful ...
How could you love him? in It's happened, what now.
The question isn’t asked For fear of being impolite They think it quietly instead They know the asking isn’t right. How could you have loved him? There’s nothing left worthwhile He’s mean, he’s...
Questions 19 and 20 in 100 questions about me
Tell your story about your first best friend as a child. How did you meet them? How did you play together? My first best friend was someone I will call L for privacy reasons. We met at summer ca...
Questions 17 and 18 in 100 questions about me
Write about a birth in your family I’m not quite sure how to do this one. I haven’t been around a lot of births except the births of my own children. I do not want to write such personal details ...
Questions 15 and 16 in 100 questions about me
What superstitions do you believe in or follow? Do you do certain things to avoid bad luck or make wishes in certain ways? This question feels more like two questions in one. I’ll start with the ...
Questions 13 and 14 in 100 questions about me
Describe your favorite toy or game when you were 5 years old. Once again a difficult one. I wrestle with myself regularly over these because I want to do them, but I procrastinate on them as the...
Imposter in It's happened, what now.
I think I’m an imposter, As fake as plastic plants I look as real as you do If you only take one glance But if you happen deeper Below the surface that you see You’ll find I’m an imposter You’ll...