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Rinse & Repeat - 03.02.14
Go to work, feel unhappy about being at work. Go to the gym, feel unhappy about being at the gym. Feel hungry and eat, feel unsatisfied. I feel like nobody sees me. I don't exist. My actions...
Oops - 11.02.14
I keep forgetting to type up my diary entries. Remind me to do that tomorrow night. I'm in a bad place mentally, and am sick with some sort of sweaty, achy virus.
Things - 07.02.14
Things are happening, you guys. I'm not even really sure to what extent, and what it means for me, but .... It's like I finally see that this IS actually going to happen, and it's going to hap...
Bored - 02.02.14
I'm just bored out of my skull today. Endlessly snacking and struggling to maintain my concentration for more than ten minutes at a time. Exam tomorrow. I failed the essay, so it's a very slim...
Unknown 27.01.14
I worry about what sort of relationship I will be going back to once I get to the US. My friend said that he was frustrated at M and I because we're both so stubborn. I can agree with that, but...
Falling Apart - 25.01.14
Today I feel really, really betrayed by M. I know nothing at all of where me life is going right now, because he doesn't tell me a damn thing. It's like he thinks I am a child, or it's none of ...
Work - 06.01.14
Back to the office today. I heard a rumour that the awful, selfish, arrogant slob secretary has had a few teary moments lately and isn't really happy at work. Not sure how I feel about that. I ...
Rotten - 05.01.14
Just feeling rotten today. I have started tracking my calories as I am disgusted at the weight I have put back on. Also went for a long walk. It's no wonder I am fat. I was so careful today, ...
Bored - 04.01.14
Completed my enrolment for 2014, when I will finish my degree. I really hope that my move won't force a reshuffle. I am ready to finish this thing. Transported my boxes over for storage at my ...
Hai
I am still alive and kicking. Not much to talk about, have a couple of entries in my paper diary to transcribe, but haven't written in a short while. Am tired. Am bored. Am broke.
Conflicted - 03.01.14
Today I had a huge clean out of my room. Packed another two boxes, fitting shoes and blankets around the misshaped Space Bags full of clothes. This week, and onwards, M is only receiving minimu...
On and On - 01.01.14
Thanks for the suggestions in my earlier entry. I have a lot to think about. Our relationship is not yet in danger, but it certainly needs a lot more work to get it back to peak. I haven't had...
Woah - 01.01.14
Had the WORST night's sleep last night. Am going back to bed shortly, seeing as I have no responsibilities to meet today. I was snooping on M's twitter page just now (which he rarely posts to) ...
Down, Down, Down - 31.12.13
The funeral was this morning. I cried like a baby. Finally got to cuddle my Heslop. His mother was only 60, so young. I still can't believe it. I'm angry with my husband for not communicatin...
Sunday - 29.12.13
Went to mother's today and cleaned up the yard. Put all the furniture and shit that was out on the grass away. Threw the rubbish onto the ever-growing trash heap. Pulled down the ridiculous "f...
Nothing - 28.12.13
I've heard nothing from my Heslop. The funeral will be on new year's eve. I have also heard nothing from my husband aside from a "merry christmas". No more, no less. I just feel awful. I ca...
Curtains - 26.12.13
Christmas was alright. Nothing worth mentioning. Housesitting for my sister again this week. It is a welcome relief because the disorganisation and lack of basic consideration at home is reall...
Coin - 18.12.13
I got paid for three weeks today. It's always very exciting, but it has to last me. I have to do a ton of Christmas shopping yet. I am being a nicer person to others, but inside I don't feel g...
I Wonder - 17.12.13
Three more days of work before a two week break. I freaking need it. I'm just bored. I want the break because I am tired, but also because I know it will be a fast two weeks. Then it will be ...
Ouchie - 16.12.13
My muscles ache after yesterday's painting efforts. Weird ones, like my shins and deep inside my feet. Tonight I made chicken soup for dinner. It was very enjoyable and I have leftovers. I wa...
Housesitting - 15.12.13
I am housesitting for my sister's fiance's auntie and uncle. I have been working my freckle off lately, between my job, working with my brother and helping my mother paint the outside of her hou...
Baby Steps - 06.12.13
I could really use a cuddle today. From M, not just any old cuddle. I have taped, weighed and transported 3 boxes to the storage area at work. Today I washed my car for the first time in about...
Burnt - 02.12.13
Submitted my essay this afternoon after work. I am officially burnt out. Feeling very braindead. M emailed me 2 videos of Ernie experiencing snow. I am sad that I missed it, but he does seem...
Going Nowhere - 01.12.13
Have an essay due tomorrow - it's in dreadful shape. Have been working on it in my office all weekend and am feeling very tired. Need to push though, though. It's already late. Today I feel h...
Down - 29.11.13
17 weeks today since I put him on that plane. Today I feel sad that I missed Thanksgiving and will soon miss Christmas with him.
Book Description
This story is about my life with M.
M and I met on another online diary site in around 2006. He was in New York, USA and I was in New South Wales, Australia. We formed a friendship and spoke nearly every day, whether online or on the phone.
Towards the end of 2008, we realised that we had become more than just friends, and we made plans for me to travel to the US in 2009. So I did.
We spent 6 months in New York, before moving to New Mexico. We got married in New Mexico and I had to return to Australia shortly after.
M followed me to Australia over 4 months later, in mid-2010.
M has now returned to the US, and I will be following him in October 2013. We are going back to New Mexico, where we have a friend to live with at first and a storage unit full of our stuff. We plan to head back to New York to settle within a few years.
