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So we try to go to America once a year. This year we went in summer so we are waiting for January 2020 when I have winter break again. Winter is cheaper for us for flights and hotels etc. NYC is ...

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I almost never write but I have been reading for years! Since OD back in the day. Its my bedtime routine! I don’t know if anyone even follows me cause I post once or twice a year but still. Ever...

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I never write and I don’t even know if anyone reads me but that’s ok :) I read daily and comment sometimes but never know what to write. I did wish I wrote more just to remember things but eh wha...

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I met my boyfriend almost 2 months ago. He is really incredible. He loves to suprise me at work with flowers or chocolates being delivered. Once for our 1 month anniversary. Once because I was ha...

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So here’s the story. After I broke up with my last boyfriend (a month or so ago) I started going on a lot of dates. I tried younger. Hotter. Older. Funnier. Taller. I wanted to see what I enjoye...

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I know I am crazy when it comes to love sex and relationships. I get excited too quickly. I fall too fast. I know this about myself and it’s something that will probably never change. But when y...

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So I guess when in last wrote I was about to go to konya to visit my ex since he was lonely. I went and we had a lot of fun but Konya is so boring. We talked about us a few times and agreed to no...

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So my 14 minis are in computer class right now. After this they have drama. Throughout the week they also have reading/writing, music, gym, science, dance, art, and chess. Yes. Chess. And yes the...

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Last week was an easy one. Went to work Monday. Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday were snow days! Tuesday and Wednesday I didn’t do much. Stayed home. Cleaned. Relaxed. Was nice. Thursday my other t...

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I’ve been doing really well with this life outlook change. I’m not worrying or stressing. I’m being positive. I am happy. Sometimes old thoughts creep into my head but I am able to push them back...

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Happy New Year everyone. Make this year count!

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Where do I even start? The year is almost over. My relationship is over. Hopefully my depression is over. I ended my relationship with the guy who was perfect. Ok he wasn’t perfect. No one is. B...

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So apparently Christmas is right around the corner. It’s hard to forget this when you live in a country that is well. Muslim. Regardless you do see Santa’s face everywhere and everything is on sa...

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Here’s the new tattoo! Can anyone guess the artist? As you can see I went for tattoo #4 today! This tattoo shop is literally next door to my friends house. She used to hang out with him all the...

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Tonight has been kind of shitty. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t really have close friends here. I have the girls from work but we don’t hang out. I’m used to being in a relationship where I ...

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Tonight sucked and that’s putting it lightly. Maybe I just cannot allow myself to be happy. Why can’t I just be happy?

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My ex decided he no longer wishes to continue a friendship with me. I apparently have nothing good about myself and I am not a person he wants to be friends with. I let him tear into me for a few...

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I feel guilt. So much of it. So much it just books over into tears and tension and I want to go back in time and fix it. My ex and I have been trying a friendship it was ok then bad then good th...

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I spent most of my weekend laying on the sofa which wasn’t too bad. A bit lonely but tolerable. My plans with my ‘friends’ fell through for Sunday morning. I never really expected them to keep it...

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My ex and I had a pretty intense conversation yesterday. He’s hurt I get it but he broke up with me. He wanted this to be over. I did my best to be nice to him because I knew he was hurting. Feel...

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I’ve been living in Turkey for 4.5 years which on paper seems long but it has flown by! At 5 years I’m able to apply for citizenship which I am planning on doing because it’s much easier to work ...

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I sit across the table from him unable to stop smiling. I’ve known him a week and a half. This isn’t long enough to know someone. He moved my drink and reaches for my hand. His hands are warm and...

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I got back on the horse and like I said I had a date with a guy Tuesday and saw him again Saturday. We ended up spending Saturday and Sunday together because the attention was nice and I let him ...

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I am still feeling some sort of loss and emptiness. We don’t talk like we used to. (Hes busy or something) I stopped trying to contact him. Let him come to me. On Monday I woke up late. I spent ...

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Has anyone ever had a good break up? This one seems to my extra painful. Since being in Turkey I have had 3 boyfriends and 3 break ups. One was big. I moved here for him. We were engaged and he ...

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